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<blockquote data-quote="Karin Schill" data-source="post: 31515"><p>Thank you for the feedback StrangerDynastyTreeNat89 and Jessie. <img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite1" alt=":)" title="Smile :)" loading="lazy" data-shortname=":)" /></p><p>I'm glad you thought I wrote Alexis perfectly since this is my one and only Dynasty fanfic...</p><p></p><p>Here's another update and you will find out what's wrong with Blake in this part: </p><p></p><p></p><p><strong>Chapter 2</strong></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>This was not the way Alexis Morrell had fantasized that her wedding was going to be like. Ever since she was a little girl she'd always wanted a big fancy church wedding with all her family and friends there. Now standing here in front of the minister at a cheap wedding chapel in Las Vegas, USA of all places, she knew that sadly her dream of a big English church wedding was never going to come true. Still glancing at the man she was going to marry she knew that it didn't matter. 'No all that matters is that Blake's going to be mine for the rest of our lives and no one's going to stop us from getting married' Alexis reflected. She knew that it was madness to elope like they had done. Yet considering the situation she was in she really didn't have much of a choice. Her mother had always warned her not to sleep with any man before being married and Alexis now knew why there was a sense in that. Since she and Blake had done the deed already she was now two months pregnant and therefore she had to marry him.</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>Unfortunately her mother didn't like Blake and thought that he wasn't good enough for her little girl. So when she'd heard that Blake had proposed and that Alexis had accepted she had refused to declare their engagement and worse she had insisted on that Alexis find someone better, like a duke or a baron to marry. She'd even arranged a marriage for Alexis with the earl of Nottingham. The only thing her mother didn't understand was that Alexis wouldn't stand for being married off to some old geezer she didn't even like. She loved Blake and didn't want anyone else. Blake might not be that rich or powerful yet but Alexis could see the potential in him and she believed in him enough to know that there would come a day when he'd make it to the top. She knew that he would make it since there was no way that she was going to spend the rest of her life being married to a loser. No Blake had promised her a glorious future with a house of their own, a household staff, lots of gifts and children and Alexis was going to hold him to those promises. Still Alexis knew that she loved him enough to stand by him if things got tough. So she took her vows seriously as she spoke them without faltering. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>I Alexis Marissa Morrell, take thee Blake Alexander Carrington, to be my lawfully wedded husband. My partner in life, the father of my children and my one true love. I will cherish our union and love you more each day than I did the day before. I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through times of failure and through times of triumphs. Regardless of the obstacles we may face together, I give you my hand, my heart, and my love from this day forward for as long as we both shall live” Alexis looked deep into Blake's brown eyes as she spoke her vows and in that moment it felt like the rest of the world just faded away and all that existed was her and Blake. After they had both said their vows they exchanged gold rings. Then in less than ten minutes the ceremony was over and the priest pronounced them husband and wife. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>You may now kiss the bride” the priest said and as their lips met in a marvelous kiss Alexis felt like her life had just begun. Then when their lips parted and Blake looked deep into her emeralds eyes and said. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>I love you Mrs. Carrington” Alexis could feel her heart overflow with joy as nothing made her happier than being Mrs. Carrington. She really liked the ring to her new name.</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>I love you too Mr. Carrington” Alexis replied with a smile, as she was sure that her life together with Blake was going to be absolutely wonderful... </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Mrs. Colby, Mrs. Colby wake up. We're almost at the Carrington mansion now Mrs. Colby” her chauffeurs voice awoke her from the most pleasant dream about her past. For a moment Alexis was completely disorientated, as she found herself wondering why the man had called her Mrs. Colby when her name was Mrs. Carrington. But then she remembered. She was in deed Mrs. Colby now. She and Blake had been divorced for decades and the only reason why she was on her way to their former home now was because Fallon had called and begged her to come. Alexis frowned as the content of Fallon's conversation flooded back to her. Considering how worried she'd been when she'd gotten into the car Alexis was surprised that she'd dozed off at all. But she had and it certainly was bittersweet to remember her wedding day considering the fact that they'd both violated their marriage vows.<em> 'Yet Blake broke more of our vows than I did. I was only unfaithful, he on the other hand stopped loving me and fathered a child with someone else' </em>Alexis reflected painfully. Since it hurt to think of how Blake constantly told her he didn't love her when she tried to tell him that she still loved him. If anything her love for him only seemed to have grown over the years.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>It was frustrating too since no matter how hard she'd tried to make him remember he'd completely blocked their time together out of his memories. He always insisted that he loved Krystle now and not her and in the light of that it really hurt to remember that the man had promised that she would be his one true love that he'd love for the rest of his life. Sometimes when she saw him she wondered how he could not remember their past when she seemed to remember every little detail about him and their time together. She'd tried several times to seduce him, to give him hints that would make him remember, that would make him love her again. Yet the only time he'd remember was when they were in Singapore and he was suffering from amnesia. Still even then she hadn't been able to get him to sleep with her until the very last night. Somehow Alexis had always believed that if she could just get him back into her bed he'd be hers again. Then she would make him forget all about his Sterling Krystle. But unfortunately he had still left her for Krystle the very next day, just like their night together meant nothing to him. It had meant everything to her though and after that one moment in time when he'd loved her like if she'd never left, Alexis had ended up wanting Blake back even more. Even now she still wanted him. Not that it mattered though, as deep in her heart she knew that it was hopelessly too late.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>Fallon hadn't told her straight out on the phone, but Alexis had a sinking feeling in her stomach that Blake was ill. <em>'Only question is how ill?' </em>Alexis reflected as the Rolls Royce pulled up in front of the Carrington mansion. For a moment she just sat there in the back of her car as she looked at her former home through the tiled car window. It was the house Blake had built for her and yet it hadn't been her home for decades. So here she was again, on the outside looking in on the life that could have been hers if Blake hadn't divorced her. Usually coming here made Alexis feel nostalgic and sad. Not that anyone would have noticed as Alexis had gotten so good at hiding her true feelings behind a mask of sarcasm. Most of the time she used her sharp tongue to insult people rather than letting them see how vulnerable she really was. But today wasn't a normal day and instead of feeling nostalgic like she normally did when she got here, all Alexis felt today was fear. Since even if Fallon had refused to tell her what was going on Alexis gut feeling told her that whatever it was it couldn't be good news. So maybe that's why she lingered so long in the car today, since a part of her just didn't want to know what was wrong. As long as she was out here she could close her eyes and pretend that everything was alright. Yet she couldn't remain out here forever. Not when her daughter was expecting her arrival. So Alexis took one last look at herself in the compact mirror, before she took a deep breath, put on her sun glasses and got out of the car.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>Alexis had thought that she was ready to face whatever was awaiting her inside of the mansion. But she had been sorely mistaken as no one could have prepared her for this. Alexis had barely made it in through the door before Fallon came running towards her. Alexis could tell immediately that something was very wrong as Fallon's eyes were red from crying. Her auburn hair was a mess. Her cheeks were pale. Looking straight into her daughter's blue-green eyes Alexis could feel a chill run down her spine as they were hallow. The otherwise so vibrant woman looked like someone had sucked the life out of her. <em>'Oh my God. Something's definitely wrong' </em>Alexis reflected, as the only other time she could remember seeing her daughter like that was when they had believed that Steven was dead.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh My God, Fallon what's wrong?” Alexis wondered, as her daughter threw herself around her neck and gave her a big hug.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Mummy thank God you're here” Fallon said once she'd broken the hug. Alexis tried to search for the answers in Fallon's pretty face.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“I came as fast as I could. Can you please tell me what's going on now? I don't like to be kept guessing” Alexis demanded.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“It's daddy” Fallon confirmed Alexis' fear.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“What about Blake?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“He's got...” Fallon swallowed down the lump in her throat and Alexis could feel her stomach clench as she steeled herself for the bad news. “He's got...”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“He's got what Fallon?” Alexis asked alarmed.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Cancer” Fallon broke down in tears in her mother's arms as she uttered the dreaded word. <em>'Cancer'.</em> The word stung her like a bee and Alexis felt her face lose all it's color as she hissed:</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Cancer?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes” Fallon nodded. “Oh mummy it's awful” Fallon sobbed, as Alexis took her into her arms in a comforting hug. Alexis would never admit it, but at that moment she needed the hug just as much as her daughter as she was utterly shocked by the news. <em>'So Blake's got cancer'</em> Alexis tried to grasp what her daughter had been telling her and what it might mean for this family.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“It is, but they caught it in time, right?” Alexis asked in a small voice. “I mean he's going to be alright, right?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“No they caught it too late, it's spread” Fallon sighed.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Meaning what?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“That he's dying” Fallon confirmed her worst fears. <em>'Blake's dying?'</em> Alexis couldn't believe it as she's always thought of the man as indestructible.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“No I don't believe that” Alexis shook her head.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“But it's true mum”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“How long have you known?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Four months”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Four months?” Alexis echoed, before her initial shock was replaced by anger. “So why haven't I been told about this before?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Daddy made us promise not to tell you. He didn't want you to know”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yeah but still, four months is a long time to withhold something like this. I mean if you've told me before I could have flown in the best doctors in the world for his surgery and...”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Mum didn't you hear me?”Fallon almost shouted. “It's not gonna be any surgery. It's too late” then her voice broke before she went on in a mellow tone of voice. “The cancer's spread. There's nothing we can do”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh come on Fallon there's gotta be something we can do. Has he gotten a second opinion?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“No...”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Well then he needs to get a second opinion. I mean what if the doctor's wrong? What if it's not cancer after all. Maybe the tumor's not cancerous” Alexis defense mechanisms were working over time as she could feel herself getting all the more hysterical, as she tried to cling on to whatever hope there was.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“I wish to God that's been true. But it's not. Daddy's really dying and the doctor says he might not last the night”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“You mean to tell me that Blake can die any time now?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“So that's why he asked for me. To say goodbye?” Alexis voice faltered, as it suddenly dawned on her. Seeing her daughter nod Alexis could feel her own tears leaving hot stains on her cheeks. She hadn't even noticed that she'd started to crying. But apparently she was. '<em>Oh My God, Blake's really dying'</em> Alexis reflected as she could feel the mixed emotions build within her. Anger, hurt, pain, sadness, confusion and fear all mixed in one. For the third time in her life Alexis felt powerless. The last time she'd felt that way was when Blake had decided to end their marriage. She hadn't wanted to divorce him but as she recalled he hadn't cared one bit about her feelings...</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>Twenty-eight year old Alexis Carrington had almost everything a woman could want. Money, social status, a stable full of horses, a huge mansion, a tennis court, a swimming pool, lots of designer clothes, expensive jewelry, Ming vases, paintings and a private plane that could jet her off to the other side of the world for lunch. She was married to one of the most powerful men in Denver and they had two adorable children, the daughter Fallon was 9 years old and the boy Steven would be 7 later this week. Yes to the outside world the Carringtons seemed like the picture perfect family. Yet if you scratched a little under the surface you soon realized that they were anything but. Since despite having everything she could possibly want, Alexis had not been happy for a long time. She hated being a housewife as it bored her out of her mind. She loved her children and enjoyed painting, yet lately not even them could keep her satisfied. She needed a man to feel loved and since her husband was neglecting her and was always away on business trips she had started taking lovers. It had been going on for years and yet Blake had never suspected that she could betray him. That was until two months ago when he'd caught her red handed with Roger Grimes. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>Alexis wasn't sure why she'd taken the chance of sleeping with Roger in her marital bed when she knew that her husband was expected back later that day. It was almost like if she had wanted to get caught and when Blake finally did catch her cheating on him a part of her had felt relieved. Because when her secret was out in the open she and Blake had to face their marital problems. Seeing Blake beating Roger to a bloody pulp had convinced Alexis that he did love her after all. She had growled for forgiveness and had convinced him to give their marriage another chance. Blake had reluctantly agreed once she had promised never to see Roger again. It was a promise that she'd kept until today when she'd stopped by Roger's room at the hospital. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>She hadn't gone to the hospital to see Roger. She had gone there to see her Gynecologists since she suspected that she might be pregnant. Her suspicions turned out to be true, she was 7 weeks pregnant and Alexis was now for the first time in months really happy. She had cleared the air with Roger and bid him farewell. It had felt good to let him go, as she was committed to making her marriage work and in order to do that she needed to give up her lovers and sleep exclusively with her husband. She was also excited about the new baby who she was convinced was going to bring her and Blake closer together. After her visit at the hospital she had gone on a shopping spree. Before she'd returned home to share the good news with her family. Seeing Blake's car in the driveway Alexis smiled to herself. Her husband was at home early from the office for a change and it was perfect since she couldn't wait to tell Blake the happy news.</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>She had looked for her husband in the library at first. But when she didn't find him there she'd decided to try their bedroom. Alexis was positively glowing when she walked up the stairs, as she just knew that things were going to work out now. 'I wonder what he'll say when I tell him we're going to have another baby?' Alexis smiled to herself, as she could imagine her husband taking her into her arms and showering her with kisses. Then the next day he would come with a pregnancy gift. They would make love tenderly and he would be so grateful to her for giving him another baby. Unfortunately all her fantasies quickly evaporated the moment when she walked in through their bedroom door and was faced with the harsh reality. Because there was Blake, with his back turned against her, packing a suitcase. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Oh no don't tell me that you're going away again. You know how much I hate it when you're going away on business trips” Alexis complained when she entered the room. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Don't worry the bag's not for me but for you” Blake stated coldly, as he zipped it up. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>We're going away on a vacation together?” Alexis asked hopeful. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No, I'm doing something I should have done a long time ago. I'm kicking you out” Blake said, as he turned around to face her. “Now here's your suitcase” he tried to give her the bag but when Alexis refused to take it he put it down on the carpet. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>What?” Alexis couldn't believe her ears. “I don't understand...”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Okay then let me make it perfectly clear to you, I've had it with you. I can't trust you anymore so this marriage is over” Blake said and seeing the coldness in his brown eyes Alexis couldn't help but shiver as there wasn't an ounce of tenderness left for her in them. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No Blake you can't do that. I mean we agreed to give us another chance” Alexis pleaded with her husband as she walked up to him and touched his arm. But Blake shook off her hand as quick as if he'd burnt himself. Before he angrily lashed out at her. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Yes but you also promised to stay away from Roger Grimes but you just couldn't do that, now could you? You just had to go see him at the hospital now, didn't you Alexis?”Blake shouted at her. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>How do you know that?”Alexis could feel the color leave her cheeks. “Did you have me followed?” Alexis wondered if her husband could sink so low. Her suspicions were confirmed by the fact that her husband refused to answer her. Since if he hadn't he would just deny it. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>It doesn't matter how I know. The thing is I know Alexis. So what did you and your lover boy talk about behind my back. Did you laugh at me?”Blake argued. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No it wasn't like that. I just went to visit him since he was ill. Blake you've got to have some mercy for the man. After all you were the one who put him in the hospital” </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Well if I'd known that you would go to see him I would have done more than just put him at the hospital. I would have killed him” the hatred in his brown eyes scared Alexis. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Blake! You can't mean that now, can you?”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Yes I do bloody mean it. The man's scum Alexis and I hate to think of how he put his filthy little fingers all over you and I bet that he's not the only one either. How many men have you had Alexis? How many men have touched your breasts and kissed your lips behind my back Alexis?”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>What is this a cross examination?” Alexis dodged the question, as her shaking fingers lit up a cigarette to calm her nerves. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Damn it woman, answer my question, have you been unfaithful to me before Roger?” Blake grabbed hold of Alexis arm, making her drop the cigarette. Alexis looked down. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Smart thinking Blake, how about if we start a little fire in here” Alexis mocked him as she bent down. But before she had a chance of picking up the cigarette he stomped it out with his foot. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>It wouldn't have happened if you hadn't insisted on smoking those damn things. Now answer my question. Have there been other men Alexis?” In that moment she hated him. She hated him for taking away her smoke. She hated him for questioning her and for going away so much. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Damn it Blake if you'd only been the husband I thought you'd be I'd never cheated. If you'd only been there for me, I wouldn't have needed to seek comfort in the arms of other men”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>So you'll admit that there's been other men before Roger?”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Yes there's been other men” Alexis finally spat out. Then feeling the need to hurt Blake as much as he was hurting her she maliciously went on. “You know, I've been sleeping with other men almost right from the start. But you've just been too busy to notice. In fact I'm not even sure that Fallon's even your daughter!” The slap on her cheek that followed hurt. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Damn you Alexis” </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Well the truth hurts now, doesn't it?”Alexis yelled provocatively. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>That's not the truth, it's a bloody lie and I don't believe you” Blake yelled as he grabbed hold of her shoulders and pushed her down on the bed. At that moment he saw red. He was so consumed by hatred for this woman who was supposed to be his and his only. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Believe what you want. But that doesn't change things”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No you're a slut Alexis” Blake spat out. As he leaned down over her. “In fact all of Denver knows what a slut you are Alexis, I've just been too blind to see it before” Rather than objecting Alexis decided to change her technique. If reasoning with Blake didn't work, she sure as hell knew something that did. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Fine I'm a slut Blake. So how about you putting your hands all over me and reclaiming what's yours?” </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>You disgust me”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No, I turn you on and you know it” Alexis replied wickedly before she used Blake's tie to pull him down to him. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Alexis...” Blake tried to object. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No don't fight it, you know that you want it” Alexis purred, before she met his lips in a passionate kiss. After a moment's struggle he gave in and kissed her back with a passion. 'Oh yes, that's more like it' Alexis heart sang out to her, as she could sense that she had him now. Still to make sure that he forgot all about their argument she also wrapped her legs around his waist as she started to rub up against him. She devoured his mouth and rolled them around so she ended up on top of him. Then she started to unbutton his shirt, as she trailed a hot line of kisses down his chest. Meanwhile her hand found it's way inside of his pants. Blake groaned as she started to massage him. “Please Blake if you'll just give me one more chance to make it up to you” Alexis whispered. “I'd do anything” she added, as she kissed her way down his stomach. It became clear to Blake that if he didn't stop her soon she was about to blow his mind off by pleasing him orally. Although a part of him throbbed for her and was more than willing to be worked up to an orgasm, he didn't want to give in. Fortunately for Blake all he had to do was think of the many other men who'd been at her mercy like this to lose his desire. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No Alexis, sex won't get you anywhere this time” Blake eventually found the strength to push her away. In doing so he left her sitting on the bed. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Don't be silly of course it will” Alexis tried to persuade him. But he added even more distance between them by standing up and grabbing the suitcase before she could try to change his mind again. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No, I've made up my mind and there's nothing you can do to change things” Blake lifted up the suitcase and pushed it into the arms of Alexis. “I'm throwing you out and that's final” </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>But you can't do that, this is my home” Alexis objected.</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>I can and I will”Blake insisted as he helped her stand up. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>But what about the children?” Alexis played her triumph card. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>The children will be doing fine without you” Blake replied coldly.</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>But I'm their mother” Alexis objected. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Unfortunately that's a fact that can't be changed. However given enough time I'm sure they'll forget all about you”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>What are you saying? You can't forbid me from seeing my own children” Alexis yelled in a shrill voice as tears started to well up in her eyes.</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”<em>Maybe not but I can make you a deal. I'll give you five million dollars in a divorce settlement and alimony payment of $ 15 000 dollars a month if you'll just stay the hell away from Denver” </em></p><p></p><p>“<em>Do you really think I'm that much of an unfit mother? That I would abandon my own flesh and blood for money?”Alexis was hurt by his proposition. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>That's exactly what I'm saying” </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No I'm not I love my children” Alexis objected, as the tears started to roll down her cheek. Just the main thought of being parted from her children hurt her very soul. ”There will be no deal”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”<em>Fine have it your way then. So if the deal's off I'll just have to drag you through court instead and once I'm through with you, proving just what a cheating, lying whore you are there won't be a court in the state of Colorado who won't give me custody of the kids and then you won't see a penny either” Blake threatened her. </em></p><p></p><p><em></em></p><p><em>”Please Blake, don't do this. I don't want a divorce. I still love you and I want our marriage to work. I know I've let you down but there's gotta be some way I can make it up to you...” Alexis pleaded with him. She was crying openly now. But unfortunately not even her tears could touch Blake's heart, as he remained cold towards her. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”<em>Alexis at this point there's nothing you can do”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”<em>I don't know about that there's gotta be a way. How about if we'll have another baby, would you like that?” Alexis was grasping at straws but she needed to tell him about her condition before he went ahead and ruined everything. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>No, we won't have any more children and you know why?”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”<em>No” Alexis shook her head. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”<em>Because hell will have to freeze over before I'll ever sleep with you again” Blake said maliciously.</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Well maybe you should have thought about that before”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Before what Alexis?” Blake challenged her. 'Before knocking me up' Alexis finished the sentence mentally. The words were at the tip of her tongue and a part of her felt temped to tell Blake that she was already pregnant right now. Yet the words got stuck in her throat</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Nothing” Alexis made up her mind. If Blake was going to keep her children from her she would repay him by keeping this baby from him.</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”<em>Good so now make up your mind, you can have an amicable divorce where you'll come away several million dollars richer or you can have a nasty one where you'll come away with nothing and in either case I'll keep the kids. I don't think visitation rights would be a good idea. It will just give you a chance to poison their innocent little minds against me. No I think the best thing for you to do is just disappear.” Blake said bitterly and Alexis could feel her spirit sink. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”<em>Do you really hate me that much?” she asked in a small voice. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”<em>Right now yes” Blake replied. “So what's it gonna be?” The question was provoking and realizing that Blake had painted her into a corner Alexis knew she really didn't have much of a choice. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Fine, I'll take your bloody money, but some day you're gonna end up regretting this” Alexis finally gave in as she took the packed suitcase that he was offering her. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Somehow I doubt it, goodbye Alexis”</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“<em>Bye Blake” Alexis replied as she walked out slamming the door to their bedroom, and with that eleven years of marriage came to an end and a wound that never had completely healed opened up in her heart...</em></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”Mum!” Fallon's demanding voice once more brought her out of her memories. Alexis shivered, as she tried to block out the unpleasant memories.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”What?” Alexis asked a bit annoyed.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>”I said we need to go see dad now” Fallon repeated and Alexis could feel the panic well up inside of her, as the idea of seeing a sick Blake wasn't appealing to her. <em>'I can't deal with this. I can't visit Blake on his death bed. Why would he even want me to? It's not like we've been close for years. So why is he asking for me now?'</em> Alexis pondered.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh I don't know if I can Fallon. I mean if your father's really sick maybe my presence will only upset him and...”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Mother that's a lot of bullocks and you know it! Dad specifically asked for you so don't you dare going home before you've at least seen him” Fallon insisted and Alexis sighed, since she knew that there was no use arguing with Fallon when she was in that kind of mood.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Alright, alright let's go see him quickly so we can get it over with” Alexis finally gave in. Mother and daughter then made their way upstairs in silence, as they were both deep within their own thoughts. Once they'd made it to the master bedroom, they stopped on the other side of the door as Fallon turned to her mother and said:</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Okay remember that he is very sick so be nice and try not to upset him” Alexis swallowed hard as she said.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“I told you this wasn't a good idea, maybe we should just forget about it?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Mother, don't try to squirm your way out of this. You will regret it later if you don't go in and say your goodbyes. I mean after all you and daddy used to love each other once”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Not used to, I still love your father Fallon” Alexis corrected a somewhat surprised Fallon. Her daughter looked stunned for a moment before her lips curved into a half smile.</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Well then that's all the more reason why you should go see him” Fallon said, as she gave her mother's arm a gentle push. “Ready?”</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes” Alexis nodded, even though she felt nothing but. <em>'Since how do you really say goodbye to the love of your life?'</em> Alexis pondered, as she followed Fallon into the master bedroom...</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>To be continued...</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Karin Schill, post: 31515"] Thank you for the feedback StrangerDynastyTreeNat89 and Jessie. :) I'm glad you thought I wrote Alexis perfectly since this is my one and only Dynasty fanfic... Here's another update and you will find out what's wrong with Blake in this part: [B]Chapter 2[/B] [I]This was not the way Alexis Morrell had fantasized that her wedding was going to be like. Ever since she was a little girl she'd always wanted a big fancy church wedding with all her family and friends there. Now standing here in front of the minister at a cheap wedding chapel in Las Vegas, USA of all places, she knew that sadly her dream of a big English church wedding was never going to come true. Still glancing at the man she was going to marry she knew that it didn't matter. 'No all that matters is that Blake's going to be mine for the rest of our lives and no one's going to stop us from getting married' Alexis reflected. She knew that it was madness to elope like they had done. Yet considering the situation she was in she really didn't have much of a choice. Her mother had always warned her not to sleep with any man before being married and Alexis now knew why there was a sense in that. Since she and Blake had done the deed already she was now two months pregnant and therefore she had to marry him.[/I] [I]Unfortunately her mother didn't like Blake and thought that he wasn't good enough for her little girl. So when she'd heard that Blake had proposed and that Alexis had accepted she had refused to declare their engagement and worse she had insisted on that Alexis find someone better, like a duke or a baron to marry. She'd even arranged a marriage for Alexis with the earl of Nottingham. The only thing her mother didn't understand was that Alexis wouldn't stand for being married off to some old geezer she didn't even like. She loved Blake and didn't want anyone else. Blake might not be that rich or powerful yet but Alexis could see the potential in him and she believed in him enough to know that there would come a day when he'd make it to the top. She knew that he would make it since there was no way that she was going to spend the rest of her life being married to a loser. No Blake had promised her a glorious future with a house of their own, a household staff, lots of gifts and children and Alexis was going to hold him to those promises. Still Alexis knew that she loved him enough to stand by him if things got tough. So she took her vows seriously as she spoke them without faltering. [/I] “[I]I Alexis Marissa Morrell, take thee Blake Alexander Carrington, to be my lawfully wedded husband. My partner in life, the father of my children and my one true love. I will cherish our union and love you more each day than I did the day before. I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through times of failure and through times of triumphs. Regardless of the obstacles we may face together, I give you my hand, my heart, and my love from this day forward for as long as we both shall live” Alexis looked deep into Blake's brown eyes as she spoke her vows and in that moment it felt like the rest of the world just faded away and all that existed was her and Blake. After they had both said their vows they exchanged gold rings. Then in less than ten minutes the ceremony was over and the priest pronounced them husband and wife. [/I] “[I]You may now kiss the bride” the priest said and as their lips met in a marvelous kiss Alexis felt like her life had just begun. Then when their lips parted and Blake looked deep into her emeralds eyes and said. [/I] “[I]I love you Mrs. Carrington” Alexis could feel her heart overflow with joy as nothing made her happier than being Mrs. Carrington. She really liked the ring to her new name.[/I] “[I]I love you too Mr. Carrington” Alexis replied with a smile, as she was sure that her life together with Blake was going to be absolutely wonderful... [/I] “Mrs. Colby, Mrs. Colby wake up. We're almost at the Carrington mansion now Mrs. Colby” her chauffeurs voice awoke her from the most pleasant dream about her past. For a moment Alexis was completely disorientated, as she found herself wondering why the man had called her Mrs. Colby when her name was Mrs. Carrington. But then she remembered. She was in deed Mrs. Colby now. She and Blake had been divorced for decades and the only reason why she was on her way to their former home now was because Fallon had called and begged her to come. Alexis frowned as the content of Fallon's conversation flooded back to her. Considering how worried she'd been when she'd gotten into the car Alexis was surprised that she'd dozed off at all. But she had and it certainly was bittersweet to remember her wedding day considering the fact that they'd both violated their marriage vows.[I] 'Yet Blake broke more of our vows than I did. I was only unfaithful, he on the other hand stopped loving me and fathered a child with someone else' [/I]Alexis reflected painfully. Since it hurt to think of how Blake constantly told her he didn't love her when she tried to tell him that she still loved him. If anything her love for him only seemed to have grown over the years. It was frustrating too since no matter how hard she'd tried to make him remember he'd completely blocked their time together out of his memories. He always insisted that he loved Krystle now and not her and in the light of that it really hurt to remember that the man had promised that she would be his one true love that he'd love for the rest of his life. Sometimes when she saw him she wondered how he could not remember their past when she seemed to remember every little detail about him and their time together. She'd tried several times to seduce him, to give him hints that would make him remember, that would make him love her again. Yet the only time he'd remember was when they were in Singapore and he was suffering from amnesia. Still even then she hadn't been able to get him to sleep with her until the very last night. Somehow Alexis had always believed that if she could just get him back into her bed he'd be hers again. Then she would make him forget all about his Sterling Krystle. But unfortunately he had still left her for Krystle the very next day, just like their night together meant nothing to him. It had meant everything to her though and after that one moment in time when he'd loved her like if she'd never left, Alexis had ended up wanting Blake back even more. Even now she still wanted him. Not that it mattered though, as deep in her heart she knew that it was hopelessly too late. Fallon hadn't told her straight out on the phone, but Alexis had a sinking feeling in her stomach that Blake was ill. [I]'Only question is how ill?' [/I]Alexis reflected as the Rolls Royce pulled up in front of the Carrington mansion. For a moment she just sat there in the back of her car as she looked at her former home through the tiled car window. It was the house Blake had built for her and yet it hadn't been her home for decades. So here she was again, on the outside looking in on the life that could have been hers if Blake hadn't divorced her. Usually coming here made Alexis feel nostalgic and sad. Not that anyone would have noticed as Alexis had gotten so good at hiding her true feelings behind a mask of sarcasm. Most of the time she used her sharp tongue to insult people rather than letting them see how vulnerable she really was. But today wasn't a normal day and instead of feeling nostalgic like she normally did when she got here, all Alexis felt today was fear. Since even if Fallon had refused to tell her what was going on Alexis gut feeling told her that whatever it was it couldn't be good news. So maybe that's why she lingered so long in the car today, since a part of her just didn't want to know what was wrong. As long as she was out here she could close her eyes and pretend that everything was alright. Yet she couldn't remain out here forever. Not when her daughter was expecting her arrival. So Alexis took one last look at herself in the compact mirror, before she took a deep breath, put on her sun glasses and got out of the car. Alexis had thought that she was ready to face whatever was awaiting her inside of the mansion. But she had been sorely mistaken as no one could have prepared her for this. Alexis had barely made it in through the door before Fallon came running towards her. Alexis could tell immediately that something was very wrong as Fallon's eyes were red from crying. Her auburn hair was a mess. Her cheeks were pale. Looking straight into her daughter's blue-green eyes Alexis could feel a chill run down her spine as they were hallow. The otherwise so vibrant woman looked like someone had sucked the life out of her. [I]'Oh my God. Something's definitely wrong' [/I]Alexis reflected, as the only other time she could remember seeing her daughter like that was when they had believed that Steven was dead. “Oh My God, Fallon what's wrong?” Alexis wondered, as her daughter threw herself around her neck and gave her a big hug. “Mummy thank God you're here” Fallon said once she'd broken the hug. Alexis tried to search for the answers in Fallon's pretty face. “I came as fast as I could. Can you please tell me what's going on now? I don't like to be kept guessing” Alexis demanded. “It's daddy” Fallon confirmed Alexis' fear. “What about Blake?” “He's got...” Fallon swallowed down the lump in her throat and Alexis could feel her stomach clench as she steeled herself for the bad news. “He's got...” “He's got what Fallon?” Alexis asked alarmed. “Cancer” Fallon broke down in tears in her mother's arms as she uttered the dreaded word. [I]'Cancer'.[/I] The word stung her like a bee and Alexis felt her face lose all it's color as she hissed: “Cancer?” “Yes” Fallon nodded. “Oh mummy it's awful” Fallon sobbed, as Alexis took her into her arms in a comforting hug. Alexis would never admit it, but at that moment she needed the hug just as much as her daughter as she was utterly shocked by the news. [I]'So Blake's got cancer'[/I] Alexis tried to grasp what her daughter had been telling her and what it might mean for this family. “It is, but they caught it in time, right?” Alexis asked in a small voice. “I mean he's going to be alright, right?” “No they caught it too late, it's spread” Fallon sighed. “Meaning what?” “That he's dying” Fallon confirmed her worst fears. [I]'Blake's dying?'[/I] Alexis couldn't believe it as she's always thought of the man as indestructible. “No I don't believe that” Alexis shook her head. “But it's true mum” “How long have you known?” “Four months” “Four months?” Alexis echoed, before her initial shock was replaced by anger. “So why haven't I been told about this before?” “Daddy made us promise not to tell you. He didn't want you to know” “Yeah but still, four months is a long time to withhold something like this. I mean if you've told me before I could have flown in the best doctors in the world for his surgery and...” “Mum didn't you hear me?”Fallon almost shouted. “It's not gonna be any surgery. It's too late” then her voice broke before she went on in a mellow tone of voice. “The cancer's spread. There's nothing we can do” “Oh come on Fallon there's gotta be something we can do. Has he gotten a second opinion?” “No...” “Well then he needs to get a second opinion. I mean what if the doctor's wrong? What if it's not cancer after all. Maybe the tumor's not cancerous” Alexis defense mechanisms were working over time as she could feel herself getting all the more hysterical, as she tried to cling on to whatever hope there was. “I wish to God that's been true. But it's not. Daddy's really dying and the doctor says he might not last the night” “You mean to tell me that Blake can die any time now?” “Yes” “So that's why he asked for me. To say goodbye?” Alexis voice faltered, as it suddenly dawned on her. Seeing her daughter nod Alexis could feel her own tears leaving hot stains on her cheeks. She hadn't even noticed that she'd started to crying. But apparently she was. '[I]Oh My God, Blake's really dying'[/I] Alexis reflected as she could feel the mixed emotions build within her. Anger, hurt, pain, sadness, confusion and fear all mixed in one. For the third time in her life Alexis felt powerless. The last time she'd felt that way was when Blake had decided to end their marriage. She hadn't wanted to divorce him but as she recalled he hadn't cared one bit about her feelings... [I]Twenty-eight year old Alexis Carrington had almost everything a woman could want. Money, social status, a stable full of horses, a huge mansion, a tennis court, a swimming pool, lots of designer clothes, expensive jewelry, Ming vases, paintings and a private plane that could jet her off to the other side of the world for lunch. She was married to one of the most powerful men in Denver and they had two adorable children, the daughter Fallon was 9 years old and the boy Steven would be 7 later this week. Yes to the outside world the Carringtons seemed like the picture perfect family. Yet if you scratched a little under the surface you soon realized that they were anything but. Since despite having everything she could possibly want, Alexis had not been happy for a long time. She hated being a housewife as it bored her out of her mind. She loved her children and enjoyed painting, yet lately not even them could keep her satisfied. She needed a man to feel loved and since her husband was neglecting her and was always away on business trips she had started taking lovers. It had been going on for years and yet Blake had never suspected that she could betray him. That was until two months ago when he'd caught her red handed with Roger Grimes. [/I] [I]Alexis wasn't sure why she'd taken the chance of sleeping with Roger in her marital bed when she knew that her husband was expected back later that day. It was almost like if she had wanted to get caught and when Blake finally did catch her cheating on him a part of her had felt relieved. Because when her secret was out in the open she and Blake had to face their marital problems. Seeing Blake beating Roger to a bloody pulp had convinced Alexis that he did love her after all. She had growled for forgiveness and had convinced him to give their marriage another chance. Blake had reluctantly agreed once she had promised never to see Roger again. It was a promise that she'd kept until today when she'd stopped by Roger's room at the hospital. [/I] [I]She hadn't gone to the hospital to see Roger. She had gone there to see her Gynecologists since she suspected that she might be pregnant. Her suspicions turned out to be true, she was 7 weeks pregnant and Alexis was now for the first time in months really happy. She had cleared the air with Roger and bid him farewell. It had felt good to let him go, as she was committed to making her marriage work and in order to do that she needed to give up her lovers and sleep exclusively with her husband. She was also excited about the new baby who she was convinced was going to bring her and Blake closer together. After her visit at the hospital she had gone on a shopping spree. Before she'd returned home to share the good news with her family. Seeing Blake's car in the driveway Alexis smiled to herself. Her husband was at home early from the office for a change and it was perfect since she couldn't wait to tell Blake the happy news.[/I] [I]She had looked for her husband in the library at first. But when she didn't find him there she'd decided to try their bedroom. Alexis was positively glowing when she walked up the stairs, as she just knew that things were going to work out now. 'I wonder what he'll say when I tell him we're going to have another baby?' Alexis smiled to herself, as she could imagine her husband taking her into her arms and showering her with kisses. Then the next day he would come with a pregnancy gift. They would make love tenderly and he would be so grateful to her for giving him another baby. Unfortunately all her fantasies quickly evaporated the moment when she walked in through their bedroom door and was faced with the harsh reality. Because there was Blake, with his back turned against her, packing a suitcase. [/I] “[I]Oh no don't tell me that you're going away again. You know how much I hate it when you're going away on business trips” Alexis complained when she entered the room. [/I] “[I]Don't worry the bag's not for me but for you” Blake stated coldly, as he zipped it up. [/I] “[I]We're going away on a vacation together?” Alexis asked hopeful. [/I] “[I]No, I'm doing something I should have done a long time ago. I'm kicking you out” Blake said, as he turned around to face her. “Now here's your suitcase” he tried to give her the bag but when Alexis refused to take it he put it down on the carpet. [/I] “[I]What?” Alexis couldn't believe her ears. “I don't understand...”[/I] “[I]Okay then let me make it perfectly clear to you, I've had it with you. I can't trust you anymore so this marriage is over” Blake said and seeing the coldness in his brown eyes Alexis couldn't help but shiver as there wasn't an ounce of tenderness left for her in them. [/I] “[I]No Blake you can't do that. I mean we agreed to give us another chance” Alexis pleaded with her husband as she walked up to him and touched his arm. But Blake shook off her hand as quick as if he'd burnt himself. Before he angrily lashed out at her. [/I] “[I]Yes but you also promised to stay away from Roger Grimes but you just couldn't do that, now could you? You just had to go see him at the hospital now, didn't you Alexis?”Blake shouted at her. [/I] “[I]How do you know that?”Alexis could feel the color leave her cheeks. “Did you have me followed?” Alexis wondered if her husband could sink so low. Her suspicions were confirmed by the fact that her husband refused to answer her. Since if he hadn't he would just deny it. [/I] “[I]It doesn't matter how I know. The thing is I know Alexis. So what did you and your lover boy talk about behind my back. Did you laugh at me?”Blake argued. [/I] “[I]No it wasn't like that. I just went to visit him since he was ill. Blake you've got to have some mercy for the man. After all you were the one who put him in the hospital” [/I] “[I]Well if I'd known that you would go to see him I would have done more than just put him at the hospital. I would have killed him” the hatred in his brown eyes scared Alexis. [/I] “[I]Blake! You can't mean that now, can you?”[/I] “[I]Yes I do bloody mean it. The man's scum Alexis and I hate to think of how he put his filthy little fingers all over you and I bet that he's not the only one either. How many men have you had Alexis? How many men have touched your breasts and kissed your lips behind my back Alexis?”[/I] “[I]What is this a cross examination?” Alexis dodged the question, as her shaking fingers lit up a cigarette to calm her nerves. [/I] “[I]Damn it woman, answer my question, have you been unfaithful to me before Roger?” Blake grabbed hold of Alexis arm, making her drop the cigarette. Alexis looked down. [/I] “[I]Smart thinking Blake, how about if we start a little fire in here” Alexis mocked him as she bent down. But before she had a chance of picking up the cigarette he stomped it out with his foot. [/I] “[I]It wouldn't have happened if you hadn't insisted on smoking those damn things. Now answer my question. Have there been other men Alexis?” In that moment she hated him. She hated him for taking away her smoke. She hated him for questioning her and for going away so much. [/I] “[I]Damn it Blake if you'd only been the husband I thought you'd be I'd never cheated. If you'd only been there for me, I wouldn't have needed to seek comfort in the arms of other men”[/I] “[I]So you'll admit that there's been other men before Roger?”[/I] “[I]Yes there's been other men” Alexis finally spat out. Then feeling the need to hurt Blake as much as he was hurting her she maliciously went on. “You know, I've been sleeping with other men almost right from the start. But you've just been too busy to notice. In fact I'm not even sure that Fallon's even your daughter!” The slap on her cheek that followed hurt. [/I] “[I]Damn you Alexis” [/I] “[I]Well the truth hurts now, doesn't it?”Alexis yelled provocatively. [/I] “[I]That's not the truth, it's a bloody lie and I don't believe you” Blake yelled as he grabbed hold of her shoulders and pushed her down on the bed. At that moment he saw red. He was so consumed by hatred for this woman who was supposed to be his and his only. [/I] “[I]Believe what you want. But that doesn't change things”[/I] “[I]No you're a slut Alexis” Blake spat out. As he leaned down over her. “In fact all of Denver knows what a slut you are Alexis, I've just been too blind to see it before” Rather than objecting Alexis decided to change her technique. If reasoning with Blake didn't work, she sure as hell knew something that did. [/I] “[I]Fine I'm a slut Blake. So how about you putting your hands all over me and reclaiming what's yours?” [/I] “[I]You disgust me”[/I] “[I]No, I turn you on and you know it” Alexis replied wickedly before she used Blake's tie to pull him down to him. [/I] “[I]Alexis...” Blake tried to object. [/I] “[I]No don't fight it, you know that you want it” Alexis purred, before she met his lips in a passionate kiss. After a moment's struggle he gave in and kissed her back with a passion. 'Oh yes, that's more like it' Alexis heart sang out to her, as she could sense that she had him now. Still to make sure that he forgot all about their argument she also wrapped her legs around his waist as she started to rub up against him. She devoured his mouth and rolled them around so she ended up on top of him. Then she started to unbutton his shirt, as she trailed a hot line of kisses down his chest. Meanwhile her hand found it's way inside of his pants. Blake groaned as she started to massage him. “Please Blake if you'll just give me one more chance to make it up to you” Alexis whispered. “I'd do anything” she added, as she kissed her way down his stomach. It became clear to Blake that if he didn't stop her soon she was about to blow his mind off by pleasing him orally. Although a part of him throbbed for her and was more than willing to be worked up to an orgasm, he didn't want to give in. Fortunately for Blake all he had to do was think of the many other men who'd been at her mercy like this to lose his desire. [/I] “[I]No Alexis, sex won't get you anywhere this time” Blake eventually found the strength to push her away. In doing so he left her sitting on the bed. [/I] “[I]Don't be silly of course it will” Alexis tried to persuade him. But he added even more distance between them by standing up and grabbing the suitcase before she could try to change his mind again. [/I] “[I]No, I've made up my mind and there's nothing you can do to change things” Blake lifted up the suitcase and pushed it into the arms of Alexis. “I'm throwing you out and that's final” [/I] “[I]But you can't do that, this is my home” Alexis objected.[/I] “[I]I can and I will”Blake insisted as he helped her stand up. [/I] “[I]But what about the children?” Alexis played her triumph card. [/I] “[I]The children will be doing fine without you” Blake replied coldly.[/I] “[I]But I'm their mother” Alexis objected. [/I] “[I]Unfortunately that's a fact that can't be changed. However given enough time I'm sure they'll forget all about you”[/I] “[I]What are you saying? You can't forbid me from seeing my own children” Alexis yelled in a shrill voice as tears started to well up in her eyes.[/I] ”[I]Maybe not but I can make you a deal. I'll give you five million dollars in a divorce settlement and alimony payment of $ 15 000 dollars a month if you'll just stay the hell away from Denver” [/I] “[I]Do you really think I'm that much of an unfit mother? That I would abandon my own flesh and blood for money?”Alexis was hurt by his proposition. [/I] “[I]That's exactly what I'm saying” [/I] “[I]No I'm not I love my children” Alexis objected, as the tears started to roll down her cheek. Just the main thought of being parted from her children hurt her very soul. ”There will be no deal”[/I] ”[I]Fine have it your way then. So if the deal's off I'll just have to drag you through court instead and once I'm through with you, proving just what a cheating, lying whore you are there won't be a court in the state of Colorado who won't give me custody of the kids and then you won't see a penny either” Blake threatened her. [/I] [I] ”Please Blake, don't do this. I don't want a divorce. I still love you and I want our marriage to work. I know I've let you down but there's gotta be some way I can make it up to you...” Alexis pleaded with him. She was crying openly now. But unfortunately not even her tears could touch Blake's heart, as he remained cold towards her. [/I] ”[I]Alexis at this point there's nothing you can do”[/I] ”[I]I don't know about that there's gotta be a way. How about if we'll have another baby, would you like that?” Alexis was grasping at straws but she needed to tell him about her condition before he went ahead and ruined everything. [/I] “[I]No, we won't have any more children and you know why?”[/I] ”[I]No” Alexis shook her head. [/I] ”[I]Because hell will have to freeze over before I'll ever sleep with you again” Blake said maliciously.[/I] “[I]Well maybe you should have thought about that before”[/I] “[I]Before what Alexis?” Blake challenged her. 'Before knocking me up' Alexis finished the sentence mentally. The words were at the tip of her tongue and a part of her felt temped to tell Blake that she was already pregnant right now. Yet the words got stuck in her throat[/I] “[I]Nothing” Alexis made up her mind. If Blake was going to keep her children from her she would repay him by keeping this baby from him.[/I] ”[I]Good so now make up your mind, you can have an amicable divorce where you'll come away several million dollars richer or you can have a nasty one where you'll come away with nothing and in either case I'll keep the kids. I don't think visitation rights would be a good idea. It will just give you a chance to poison their innocent little minds against me. No I think the best thing for you to do is just disappear.” Blake said bitterly and Alexis could feel her spirit sink. [/I] ”[I]Do you really hate me that much?” she asked in a small voice. [/I] ”[I]Right now yes” Blake replied. “So what's it gonna be?” The question was provoking and realizing that Blake had painted her into a corner Alexis knew she really didn't have much of a choice. [/I] “[I]Fine, I'll take your bloody money, but some day you're gonna end up regretting this” Alexis finally gave in as she took the packed suitcase that he was offering her. [/I] “[I]Somehow I doubt it, goodbye Alexis”[/I] “[I]Bye Blake” Alexis replied as she walked out slamming the door to their bedroom, and with that eleven years of marriage came to an end and a wound that never had completely healed opened up in her heart...[/I] ”Mum!” Fallon's demanding voice once more brought her out of her memories. Alexis shivered, as she tried to block out the unpleasant memories. ”What?” Alexis asked a bit annoyed. ”I said we need to go see dad now” Fallon repeated and Alexis could feel the panic well up inside of her, as the idea of seeing a sick Blake wasn't appealing to her. [I]'I can't deal with this. I can't visit Blake on his death bed. Why would he even want me to? It's not like we've been close for years. So why is he asking for me now?'[/I] Alexis pondered. “Oh I don't know if I can Fallon. I mean if your father's really sick maybe my presence will only upset him and...” “Mother that's a lot of bullocks and you know it! Dad specifically asked for you so don't you dare going home before you've at least seen him” Fallon insisted and Alexis sighed, since she knew that there was no use arguing with Fallon when she was in that kind of mood. “Alright, alright let's go see him quickly so we can get it over with” Alexis finally gave in. Mother and daughter then made their way upstairs in silence, as they were both deep within their own thoughts. Once they'd made it to the master bedroom, they stopped on the other side of the door as Fallon turned to her mother and said: “Okay remember that he is very sick so be nice and try not to upset him” Alexis swallowed hard as she said. “I told you this wasn't a good idea, maybe we should just forget about it?” “Mother, don't try to squirm your way out of this. You will regret it later if you don't go in and say your goodbyes. I mean after all you and daddy used to love each other once” “Not used to, I still love your father Fallon” Alexis corrected a somewhat surprised Fallon. Her daughter looked stunned for a moment before her lips curved into a half smile. “Well then that's all the more reason why you should go see him” Fallon said, as she gave her mother's arm a gentle push. “Ready?” “Yes” Alexis nodded, even though she felt nothing but. [I]'Since how do you really say goodbye to the love of your life?'[/I] Alexis pondered, as she followed Fallon into the master bedroom... 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