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<blockquote data-quote="Karin Schill" data-source="post: 32462"><p>Thank you Jessie. I'm glad that you think this story is amazing. <img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite1" alt=":)" title="Smile :)" loading="lazy" data-shortname=":)" /></p><p>You'll find out now what Blake will say to Alexis: </p><p></p><p></p><p><strong>Chapter 3</strong></p><p></p><p></p><p>Alexis felt like she was walking straight into a lions den. Blakes room was rather dark, as the drapes were pulled for the windows, so the sunlight didn't reach it. Alexis was not at all surprised to find the sterling Krystle and that daughter of hers sit by Blake's side. They were blocking her view so she couldn't even see the man who was laying in the bed, but she supposed it was Blake. There were five more people in the room, as her eyes had gotten adjusted to the darkness she recognized them as Jeff, Kirby and her children; Adam, Steven and Amanda.<em> 'Steven's flown in from Washington? I guess Blake really must be sick' </em>Alexis could feel a tug at her heart as she for the first time realized that Fallon might be right. <em>'Maybe Blake's really dying' </em>Alexis could feel the panic rise inside of her, as her youngest son got up to greet her.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Mother, I'm so glad you're here” Steven said as he gave her a warm hug.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Steven. I didn't know you were in Denver” Alexis said in an emotional voice.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I only got here last night...” Steven swallowed. “When Fallon told me about dad, I knew I had to come”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“So Blake's really that ill?” Alexis wondered. But before Steven could answer she could hear a deep voice she would have recognized anywhere. He sounded frail but it was unmistakeably Blake's voice and he was asking for her.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Fallon is your mother here yet?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes, she's just arrived” Fallon replied.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Then why doesn't she come over here so that I can see her?” Blake complained.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“She's talking to Steven” Fallon informed him.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh but can't she do it later?” Blake wondered. “I need to see her first” Blake paused before he called out her name. “Alexis!” There was something about his way of calling her name that reminded her of old times.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Sorry Steven, but your father has summoned me” Alexis said jokingly. Before she started to walk over to Blake's bed. “Yes Blake, I'm here!” she said, as she sat down on Blake's right side, next to Amanda. Alexis could feel a pair of blue eyes bore into her side, so she looked up and saw Krystle give her the cold fish eye from where she sat on Blake's left side. It was obvious that Krystle wasn't too happy that the first Mrs. Carrington had arrived on the scene. Alexis decided not to let Krystle ruin the moment, as she made a mental note never to see the plastic surgeon that Krystle's been to, as the blond bimbo's face was so stiff you could barely even recognize it anymore. <em>'Ouch her plastic surgeon sure has done a number on her, she looks absolutely dreadful' </em>Alexis realized satisfied.<em> 'No wonder Blake's been asking for me, when that's what he has to wake up next to every morning'</em> Alexis smiled to herself. Yet her small victory over Krystle was short lived as she then turned her attention to Blake and having a first good look at him she realized that the reason why she and Krystle were rivals was soon a none issue. Since she'd never seen Blake look as fragile before. Taking one good look at him and she realized just how ill he was.<em> 'Oh no, Fallon wasn't lying when she said he was dying' </em>Alexis knew it the moment she saw him. She'd last seen Blake three months ago at Adam's birthday party and the difference between then and now was horrifying, as Blake looked like he'd lost 25 pounds in weight, his face was more lined than she remembered, his brown eyes were tired, his lips almost blue and his hair all white. He looked so skinny and fragile that Alexis could feel the lump grow in her throat, as she tried to fight back her tears. But it was useless, just the sight of Blake made her green eyes well over.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Alexis, I am so glad that you came” Blake's eyes softened a bit and a small smile lingered in the corner of his mouth as he recognized her. “I need to talk to you”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Okay I am here, talk” Alexis replied.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No alone" Blake insisted, as he looked from Alexis to the other people in the room. “You don't mind, do you?” he asked, and their children hurried to get up.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No of course not” Adam replied.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“We'll be right outside if you'll need us” Amanda insisted and their children, Krystina, Jeff and Kirby got up and quickly left the room. Blake then looked at Krystle and added.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“You too Krystle...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“But Blake...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No buts, what I have to say is between Alexis and me” Blake insisted. “Will you please leave us alone for a few minutes?” Hearing Blake tell Krystle off made Alexis heart sing with joy and if Blake hadn't been so sick Alexis might have gloated or said something nasty but as it was now, she couldn't find it in her heart to do so since she shared the other woman's pain. </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Alright, but I'll be waiting outside so if she'll give you a hard time just summon me” Krystle finally gave up.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Thanks darling, but I don't think that will be necessary” Blake replied. Krystle then leaned down and demonstratively gave Blake a kiss on the mouth before she left the room. As the door closed behind Krystle, Alexis found herself alone with Blake in their old bedroom. It was a moment she'd often dreamed about in the past 30 years. Yet her victory didn't bring her any joy since the knowledge that she was losing Blake was weighing heavily on her mind. Silent tears run down her face, as she looked at the man who laid before her. It was hard to imagine that he was the same man who she'd fallen in love with all those years ago, as he looked so sick and fragile. He was just a shadow of the powerful man he'd once been. Taking his hand into her own she said:</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh Blake, Fallon told me that you were sick but I never thought that...” Alexis voice broke as she couldn't get the words out.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I was dying?” Blake finished the sentence for her and Alexis sobbed.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yeah, you are, aren't you?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I am” Blake confirmed. “But don't you waste your tears on me, you hear me?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I'm sorry it's just that it's so hard to see you like this”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Like what, helpless?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes” Alexis nodded.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“It's not easy to be like this either” Blake sighed. “Unfortunately it's a path we all have to walk down sooner or later and being like this does put things in perspective”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I guess, so what is it you wanted to talk to me about?” </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Our divorce” his answer threw her since she hadn't expected that. It was a topic Alexis would rather avoid but before she could object Blake went on. “You'll see I've been thinking a lot lately about you and me and Roger Grimes and the way things ended and I...” Blake suddenly stopped mid-sentence as he started to cough really badly. Seeing him in so much pain Alexis could feel herself getting all worried about him. It brought out her nurturing side as she said:</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh Blake it doesn't matter, nothing matters anymore. Don't try to talk, you just rest and...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No Alexis” Blake cut her off. “I need to get this off my chest, since it does matter” Blake insisted and seeing a spark of the old determination when he spoke to her Alexis knew better than to argue with him.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Okay go on...” </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Like I've said I've been thinking a lot lately about us and I've slowly come to realize that I was wrong and...” Blake once more stopped as he started to cough. “Alexis could you?” Blake gestured to her that he wanted some water. So Alexis lifted the water glass to his lips and Blake drank from the glass.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Thank you” Blake said, as she put the glass down.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“You're welcome, so you were saying?” Alexis asked as she was almost convinced that she'd heard the all mighty Blake Carrington finally admit that he'd made a mistake in throwing her out of the house all those years ago and no matter how sick he was she had waited too many years to hear him say that to want him to stop now.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“That I never should have forbidden you to see the children” Blake admitted. “I mean over the years you have proven over and over again just how much you love them and you have missed out on so much time with them because of me. It was selfish of me to deprive them of their mother just because of my wounded pride. I was angry with you so I wanted to hurt you like you had hurt me and to do that I had to take away the one thing that mattered the most to you”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Our children”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes, bare with me Alexis, since this is not easy to say but I feel like I need to ask you for your forgiveness” </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh Blake do you have any idea how long I've waited to hear you say that?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“45 years to be precise but who's counting?” </p><p></p><p></p><p>“I guess you do, if you ask me I have better things to do with my time than to sit and cry over the past” said Alexis and Blake managed a smile.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“So does that mean you'll forgive me” Blake searched Alexis emerald eyes for an answer as she went silent for what seemed like an eternity. Then when she finally spoke her answer was not the one he had been expecting. </p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>“I don't think I am the one you'll need forgiveness from” Alexis said solemnly. “It's the children who suffered the most so why don't you ask them?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I have and they have already forgiven me. For so long I thought that was enough. But it's not” Blake sighed. “I need you to forgive me Alexis, can you find it in your heart to do so?” Alexis seemed to ponder her answer for a moment and once more her answer was not the one he had been expecting.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“If you can forgive me” Alexis said softly.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Forgive you?” Blake wondered.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes for not telling you about Amanda, if I had just told you I was pregnant maybe things would have turned out differently for us. But I just gave up”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“So did I, but if Amanda can forgive us for not being there for her when she was a child I guess we can forgive each other”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I suppose but it's not just that though. I mean when things started to go bad in our marriage I could have tried to talk to you. To tell you what I needed. But instead I sought comfort in the arms of other men. If I hadn't cheated on you, you wouldn't have had a reason to throw me out in the first place. So in some way you can say that I brought this situation on myself and...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“That's nonsense Alexis” Blake cut her off. “I mean it does take two to make a marriage work and after Adam's been kidnapped I pushed you away. I buried my pain under a pile of paper work instead of sharing it with you. I didn't let you in and I should have had”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I know but we both made so many mistakes”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“We did but we were young” Blake said.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“We were” Alexis agreed.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“It's strange how fast the time flies by. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday when we met and not a lifetime ago...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I know, time sure goes by too fast”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“It does, I remember when we first met how I thought you were just about the most beautiful woman that I had ever seen” Blake paused for a moment before adding in a beat. “You still are”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Thanks Blake that's sweet of you” Alexis almost blushed, since that was about the last thing she'd expected him to say. “Still you can't be serious. I mean I've aged so much...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“We both have and yes I am serious. You've aged gracefully Alexis”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“If you'll say so. I guess I'd be a fool to argue with that” Alexis said lightheartedly. “You've aged well too Blake” she then complemented him back, even though right now he looked just about anything but well. Looking at him now she could feel something tug at her heart. “I'm just sad we couldn't grow old together. I guess I didn't realize just what I had lost until it was too late” she said reflectively.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Neither did I” Blake finally admitted. “At times I couldn't help but wondering what our lives could have been like if I hadn't thrown you out”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Really? So it wasn't just me then...” Alexis could feel her heart skip a beat at Blake's confession, as she'd dreamed for him to say this for so long.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No it wasn't just you” Blake sighed. “I thought about you more often than I'd like to admit. After all it took me years to move on and even when I had there were moments when I couldn't help but wondering what could have been, especially after Singapore”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Ah Singapore, yes that was definitely bittersweet, for a week I could have you back just like if I'd never left. Then when you've gotten your memory back you just walked away like if you'd never loved me at all”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No it wasn't like that...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Wasn't it?” Alexis inquired and Blake frowned.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Okay maybe it was exactly like that” Blake paused as he pondered for a moment about the situation before he went on. “I'm sorry if I've hurt you. I didn't mean to...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I'm sorry too. I never meant to hurt you either Blake. I mean I love you, you might find it hard to believe Blake but I have always loved you” Alexis said softly and for the first time in years her words didn't ring untrue to him. </p><p></p><p></p><p>“I believe you” Blake acknowledged. “And for what it's worth I want you to know that I have loved you too”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Thanks Blake, I needed to hear that”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I know and I'm also glad that you came back to Denver”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“You are?” Alexis asked astonished. “Even after everything I've put you through? I mean Krystle lost her child because of me. Your child” Alexis spelled it out for him and Blake groaned. </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Alexis please let's not get into that...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No Blake I need to get this off my conscience” Alexis insisted before she went on in a quivering voice “I did fire that gun on purpose” Blake could feel a stab towards his heart, since there it was at last, the naked truth.“I know that it makes me an awful person, but I didn't want anyone else to have your child, I was just so consumed with jealousy that I didn't see the whole picture. I regretted it later of course and maybe that's why I tried so hard to help you when Krystina was ill. Because I somehow wanted to make it up to you...” Alexis' sentence trailed off and Blake was astonished by what she had told him. Of course a part of him had always known that Alexis had caused Krystle's miscarriage on purpose. <em>'But that she actually regrets it?'</em> Blake reflected since he hadn't seen that one coming. “And I guess you wish I had never come back to Denver now, huh?” Alexis said in a small voice. </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Actually no, since you being here have made my life more colorful, not to mention longer. I mean you saved my life once, you were the first to accept Adam, you've helped me reach Steven and you've brought Amanda into my life” Blake smiled. “I think that makes up for the lost child”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“You mean that you'll forgive me?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes” Blake nodded. “Even though it's really Krystle's forgiveness you'll need” Blake frowned before he went on. “Alexis I want you to promise me something?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“What?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Bury the hatches with Krystle. When I'm gone there's no reason for you to argue”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Well maybe you should tell her that. She's the one who starts all of our fights. I mean mud wrestling and taking a swim in the lily pond is not exactly my idea of fun” Alexis said sarcastically and Blake couldn't help but laughing at that. </p><p></p><p></p><p>“I know and I have talked to Krystle about it. I think she'll leave you alone if you don't verbally attack her”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I don't...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Alexis please, we both know that you have an acid tongue. That's one of the things I find so amusing about you” Blake smiled and Alexis smiled back.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Okay, I'll try to be nice to Krystle, how's that?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Thank you” Blake said gratefully. “Now there's two more things I want you to do for me”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Hey what's with being so demanding?” Alexis said jokingly.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Well if I can't ask for things on my deathbed, when can I ask for them?” Blake replied and Alexis once more started crying as she was reminded of just why she was here.<em> 'Blake's dying. Why does he have to die? Especially now when we've finally sorted things out' </em>Alexis could feel her heart ache.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh Blake I don't want you to die”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I know but I've had a good life. So no more tears for those beautiful eyes, remember?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I remember” Alexis managed to smile as she pulled herself together.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Now I want you to promise me that you'll be there for our children and our grandchildren”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I promise”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Good since when all is said and done the children is really the most important thing we've accomplished in our lives”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I agree, our children and grandchildren are the most important people in my life” </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Mine too, no matter how bad things have been between us they are the one good thing that came out of our marriage and I am so grateful that you had them for me” Blake said in a way that made Alexis smirk. Since it was just so typically Blake to insist she'd had the children for him. <em>'Even on his deathbed he still talks like if the world revolved around him, but then again I guess for so many years my world has revolved around him' </em>Alexis reflected since she knew that there had been a time when she would have given Blake anything he'd asked for. Even if it meant suffering through 20 hours of labor to produce an heir to his empire.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I'm glad we had the children too” Alexis said softly.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes they've all enriched my life so much” Blake said emotionally. “Adam's finally come into his own. He is the son I always hoped to have. The one who will follow in my footsteps. I think he knows that he's finally proven himself to me. Steven, he's the sensitive one, who's found his own path in life. I never thought I'd have a son like him and yet I am glad I did as he's made me a better person. Amanda, she's the sweet one, who reminds me of my mother. She's the one who needs us the most. Since we both failed her as a child she is always looking for reassurance”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I know” Alexis nodded. “And Fallon?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Fallon will always be my little girl” Blake smiled fondly. “She's the sharpest one of them. A tomboy who grew up to be an intelligent woman with a nose for business. She's so strong, beautiful, colorful and full of life. For so many years she was like a wild horse that couldn't be tamed. She wanted to run free. She's settled down now and I am so proud of her. Out of all of our children she was always my favorite”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I know” Alexis nodded.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“But you don't know why, do you?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No” </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Because she's a carbon copy of her mother” Blake's words surprised her. Of course Alexis had always known that Fallon was just like her. Still she hadn't thought that Blake had noticed.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I know, but I wasn't sure you were aware of it”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh I was aware of it alright. That's why I spoiled her rotten after you left. Everything I couldn't give you I gave Fallon. Jewelry, ponies, expensive trips and designer clothes”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“All the best things that money could buy” Alexis said sadly.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes I was forever compensating for having deprived her of a mother's love. Yet the only thing I never did seem to give her enough of was my time. Just like I never gave you enough time. If I had maybe things would have turned out differently for us”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I know but hey let's not cry over the past. It can't be changed anyway. So what was the last thing you wanted from me?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“A goodbye kiss” Blake said softly and his words threw Alexis as it was the last thing she had expected.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“What? You can't be serious...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I'm definitely serious Alexis. After everything we've been to each other I need it”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No wonder you sent Krystle out of the room”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Is that a yes?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“You know I've never been able to deny you anything”Alexis said softly.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Good since I think it's about time we kiss and make up, don't you?” Blake said teasingly and despite his illness she could see something of that old twinkle in his brown eyes. </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes” Alexis smiled, as she gently leaned down and pressed her lips to Blake's in a tender kiss. It was a bittersweet moment since they both knew that it would be the last time they'd kiss. When their lips parted Alexis looked deep into Blake's brown eyes. He looked at her so tenderly and it seemed like he had something on the tip of his tongue. <em>'Can it be that he still loves me too?' </em>Alexis wondered, as for a moment it felt like that's what he was trying to communicate with his eyes. But before he had a chance to actually tell her anything the door opened and in came Krystle and Fallon.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Blake are you done with Alexis yet?” Krystle interrupted and the mood was forever lost. </p><p></p><p></p><p>“I'm sorry mummy and daddy, I tried to stop her but Krystle promptly wanted to see so you two weren't at each others throats” Fallon said apologetic.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“It's alright Fallon, your mother and I were about done here anyway” Blake said to Alexis' disappointment. Still knowing when she was not welcomed Alexis quickly tried to wipe the tears off her face as she said: </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes we've said just about everything but goodbye so I guess we should do that so I can be on my way...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Thank you Alexis, I think it's very sensible of you to leave Blake alone with his immediate family. He is tired so he doesn't need too many people around” Krystle said. The comment hurt but rather than letting her rival see what effect her words had on her Alexis turned to Blake and said:</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Blake, I'm gonna go now, but I am so glad that we got this chance to talk. I would have hated for you to go without us having a chance to clean the air”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“I'm glad too...” Blake smiled.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“So I guess all that remains now is to say goodbye” Alexis said with a trembling voice as she tried to stand up. Only finding that she couldn't as Blake wouldn't let go of her hand.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No Alexis, stay” Blake objected.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“What did you say?” Alexis wasn't sure she had heard him right. </p><p> </p><p></p><p>“I said don't you dare going anywhere, I want you to stay”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Thanks Blake that's very sweet of you but I don't think that will go down well with Krystle...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Krystle's not dying. I am and I want you here, after all your whole family is here so this is where you belong” Blake said matter of factly.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“But Blake” Krystle tried to object.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No Krystle, Alexis is after all the mother of four of my children and they'll need her here. So it's okay if she'll stay on for their sake, isn't it Krystle?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“If that's what you want” Krystle replied, as she tried to swallow down her disappointment. She had hoped to get another moment alone with Blake but now with Alexis staying on in the room that seemed impossible.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Good, now come over here Krystle” Blake said and pattered for Krystle to sit down on his other side. Krystle took his other hand and said.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Yes Blake?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Now I want you to do something for me”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Anything Blake”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Good I want you to make peace with Alexis”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“But Blake...”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No buts, if you ladies love me as much as you say you do surely you can bury the hatches for my sake. Or is that too difficult for you?”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“No Blake” Alexis promised and not wanting to seem like the bad one Krystle had no choice but reluctantly agree.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Okay Blake”</p><p></p><p></p><p>“That's better, now shake hands on it” Alexis and Krystle looked annoyed at each other for a moment before Alexis was the first to offer her hand. </p><p></p><p></p><p>“Truce Krystle?” she asked.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Truce Alexis” Krystle replied before she shook it.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Good, now Fallon tell the others to get in here. I want my whole family to be here when I close my eyes” Blake insisted.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Sure daddy” Fallon agreed and then went to fetch her siblings, in laws, children and nieces and nephews. Blake could feel a surge or pride inside of him when he saw his family surround his bed. He made sure to address them one on one as he said his goodbyes and then almost 48 hours later when he finally left this life behind he did so with a smile on his lips. Since he knew that he'd made his life count and left a legacy to his children and grandchildren that he could be proud over...</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p>To Be Continued...</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Karin Schill, post: 32462"] Thank you Jessie. I'm glad that you think this story is amazing. :) You'll find out now what Blake will say to Alexis: [B]Chapter 3[/B] Alexis felt like she was walking straight into a lions den. Blakes room was rather dark, as the drapes were pulled for the windows, so the sunlight didn't reach it. Alexis was not at all surprised to find the sterling Krystle and that daughter of hers sit by Blake's side. They were blocking her view so she couldn't even see the man who was laying in the bed, but she supposed it was Blake. There were five more people in the room, as her eyes had gotten adjusted to the darkness she recognized them as Jeff, Kirby and her children; Adam, Steven and Amanda.[I] 'Steven's flown in from Washington? I guess Blake really must be sick' [/I]Alexis could feel a tug at her heart as she for the first time realized that Fallon might be right. [I]'Maybe Blake's really dying' [/I]Alexis could feel the panic rise inside of her, as her youngest son got up to greet her. “Mother, I'm so glad you're here” Steven said as he gave her a warm hug. “Steven. I didn't know you were in Denver” Alexis said in an emotional voice. “I only got here last night...” Steven swallowed. “When Fallon told me about dad, I knew I had to come” “So Blake's really that ill?” Alexis wondered. But before Steven could answer she could hear a deep voice she would have recognized anywhere. He sounded frail but it was unmistakeably Blake's voice and he was asking for her. “Fallon is your mother here yet?” “Yes, she's just arrived” Fallon replied. “Then why doesn't she come over here so that I can see her?” Blake complained. “She's talking to Steven” Fallon informed him. “Oh but can't she do it later?” Blake wondered. “I need to see her first” Blake paused before he called out her name. “Alexis!” There was something about his way of calling her name that reminded her of old times. “Sorry Steven, but your father has summoned me” Alexis said jokingly. Before she started to walk over to Blake's bed. “Yes Blake, I'm here!” she said, as she sat down on Blake's right side, next to Amanda. Alexis could feel a pair of blue eyes bore into her side, so she looked up and saw Krystle give her the cold fish eye from where she sat on Blake's left side. It was obvious that Krystle wasn't too happy that the first Mrs. Carrington had arrived on the scene. Alexis decided not to let Krystle ruin the moment, as she made a mental note never to see the plastic surgeon that Krystle's been to, as the blond bimbo's face was so stiff you could barely even recognize it anymore. [I]'Ouch her plastic surgeon sure has done a number on her, she looks absolutely dreadful' [/I]Alexis realized satisfied.[I] 'No wonder Blake's been asking for me, when that's what he has to wake up next to every morning'[/I] Alexis smiled to herself. Yet her small victory over Krystle was short lived as she then turned her attention to Blake and having a first good look at him she realized that the reason why she and Krystle were rivals was soon a none issue. Since she'd never seen Blake look as fragile before. Taking one good look at him and she realized just how ill he was.[I] 'Oh no, Fallon wasn't lying when she said he was dying' [/I]Alexis knew it the moment she saw him. She'd last seen Blake three months ago at Adam's birthday party and the difference between then and now was horrifying, as Blake looked like he'd lost 25 pounds in weight, his face was more lined than she remembered, his brown eyes were tired, his lips almost blue and his hair all white. He looked so skinny and fragile that Alexis could feel the lump grow in her throat, as she tried to fight back her tears. But it was useless, just the sight of Blake made her green eyes well over. “Alexis, I am so glad that you came” Blake's eyes softened a bit and a small smile lingered in the corner of his mouth as he recognized her. “I need to talk to you” “Okay I am here, talk” Alexis replied. “No alone" Blake insisted, as he looked from Alexis to the other people in the room. “You don't mind, do you?” he asked, and their children hurried to get up. “No of course not” Adam replied. “We'll be right outside if you'll need us” Amanda insisted and their children, Krystina, Jeff and Kirby got up and quickly left the room. Blake then looked at Krystle and added. “You too Krystle...” “But Blake...” “No buts, what I have to say is between Alexis and me” Blake insisted. “Will you please leave us alone for a few minutes?” Hearing Blake tell Krystle off made Alexis heart sing with joy and if Blake hadn't been so sick Alexis might have gloated or said something nasty but as it was now, she couldn't find it in her heart to do so since she shared the other woman's pain. “Alright, but I'll be waiting outside so if she'll give you a hard time just summon me” Krystle finally gave up. “Thanks darling, but I don't think that will be necessary” Blake replied. Krystle then leaned down and demonstratively gave Blake a kiss on the mouth before she left the room. As the door closed behind Krystle, Alexis found herself alone with Blake in their old bedroom. It was a moment she'd often dreamed about in the past 30 years. Yet her victory didn't bring her any joy since the knowledge that she was losing Blake was weighing heavily on her mind. Silent tears run down her face, as she looked at the man who laid before her. It was hard to imagine that he was the same man who she'd fallen in love with all those years ago, as he looked so sick and fragile. He was just a shadow of the powerful man he'd once been. Taking his hand into her own she said: “Oh Blake, Fallon told me that you were sick but I never thought that...” Alexis voice broke as she couldn't get the words out. “I was dying?” Blake finished the sentence for her and Alexis sobbed. “Yeah, you are, aren't you?” “I am” Blake confirmed. “But don't you waste your tears on me, you hear me?” “I'm sorry it's just that it's so hard to see you like this” “Like what, helpless?” “Yes” Alexis nodded. “It's not easy to be like this either” Blake sighed. “Unfortunately it's a path we all have to walk down sooner or later and being like this does put things in perspective” “I guess, so what is it you wanted to talk to me about?” “Our divorce” his answer threw her since she hadn't expected that. It was a topic Alexis would rather avoid but before she could object Blake went on. “You'll see I've been thinking a lot lately about you and me and Roger Grimes and the way things ended and I...” Blake suddenly stopped mid-sentence as he started to cough really badly. Seeing him in so much pain Alexis could feel herself getting all worried about him. It brought out her nurturing side as she said: “Oh Blake it doesn't matter, nothing matters anymore. Don't try to talk, you just rest and...” “No Alexis” Blake cut her off. “I need to get this off my chest, since it does matter” Blake insisted and seeing a spark of the old determination when he spoke to her Alexis knew better than to argue with him. “Okay go on...” “Like I've said I've been thinking a lot lately about us and I've slowly come to realize that I was wrong and...” Blake once more stopped as he started to cough. “Alexis could you?” Blake gestured to her that he wanted some water. So Alexis lifted the water glass to his lips and Blake drank from the glass. “Thank you” Blake said, as she put the glass down. “You're welcome, so you were saying?” Alexis asked as she was almost convinced that she'd heard the all mighty Blake Carrington finally admit that he'd made a mistake in throwing her out of the house all those years ago and no matter how sick he was she had waited too many years to hear him say that to want him to stop now. “That I never should have forbidden you to see the children” Blake admitted. “I mean over the years you have proven over and over again just how much you love them and you have missed out on so much time with them because of me. It was selfish of me to deprive them of their mother just because of my wounded pride. I was angry with you so I wanted to hurt you like you had hurt me and to do that I had to take away the one thing that mattered the most to you” “Our children” “Yes, bare with me Alexis, since this is not easy to say but I feel like I need to ask you for your forgiveness” “Oh Blake do you have any idea how long I've waited to hear you say that?” “45 years to be precise but who's counting?” “I guess you do, if you ask me I have better things to do with my time than to sit and cry over the past” said Alexis and Blake managed a smile. “So does that mean you'll forgive me” Blake searched Alexis emerald eyes for an answer as she went silent for what seemed like an eternity. Then when she finally spoke her answer was not the one he had been expecting. “I don't think I am the one you'll need forgiveness from” Alexis said solemnly. “It's the children who suffered the most so why don't you ask them?” “I have and they have already forgiven me. For so long I thought that was enough. But it's not” Blake sighed. “I need you to forgive me Alexis, can you find it in your heart to do so?” Alexis seemed to ponder her answer for a moment and once more her answer was not the one he had been expecting. “If you can forgive me” Alexis said softly. “Forgive you?” Blake wondered. “Yes for not telling you about Amanda, if I had just told you I was pregnant maybe things would have turned out differently for us. But I just gave up” “So did I, but if Amanda can forgive us for not being there for her when she was a child I guess we can forgive each other” “I suppose but it's not just that though. I mean when things started to go bad in our marriage I could have tried to talk to you. To tell you what I needed. But instead I sought comfort in the arms of other men. If I hadn't cheated on you, you wouldn't have had a reason to throw me out in the first place. So in some way you can say that I brought this situation on myself and...” “That's nonsense Alexis” Blake cut her off. “I mean it does take two to make a marriage work and after Adam's been kidnapped I pushed you away. I buried my pain under a pile of paper work instead of sharing it with you. I didn't let you in and I should have had” “I know but we both made so many mistakes” “We did but we were young” Blake said. “We were” Alexis agreed. “It's strange how fast the time flies by. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday when we met and not a lifetime ago...” “I know, time sure goes by too fast” “It does, I remember when we first met how I thought you were just about the most beautiful woman that I had ever seen” Blake paused for a moment before adding in a beat. “You still are” “Thanks Blake that's sweet of you” Alexis almost blushed, since that was about the last thing she'd expected him to say. “Still you can't be serious. I mean I've aged so much...” “We both have and yes I am serious. You've aged gracefully Alexis” “If you'll say so. I guess I'd be a fool to argue with that” Alexis said lightheartedly. “You've aged well too Blake” she then complemented him back, even though right now he looked just about anything but well. Looking at him now she could feel something tug at her heart. “I'm just sad we couldn't grow old together. I guess I didn't realize just what I had lost until it was too late” she said reflectively. “Neither did I” Blake finally admitted. “At times I couldn't help but wondering what our lives could have been like if I hadn't thrown you out” “Really? So it wasn't just me then...” Alexis could feel her heart skip a beat at Blake's confession, as she'd dreamed for him to say this for so long. “No it wasn't just you” Blake sighed. “I thought about you more often than I'd like to admit. After all it took me years to move on and even when I had there were moments when I couldn't help but wondering what could have been, especially after Singapore” “Ah Singapore, yes that was definitely bittersweet, for a week I could have you back just like if I'd never left. Then when you've gotten your memory back you just walked away like if you'd never loved me at all” “No it wasn't like that...” “Wasn't it?” Alexis inquired and Blake frowned. “Okay maybe it was exactly like that” Blake paused as he pondered for a moment about the situation before he went on. “I'm sorry if I've hurt you. I didn't mean to...” “I'm sorry too. I never meant to hurt you either Blake. I mean I love you, you might find it hard to believe Blake but I have always loved you” Alexis said softly and for the first time in years her words didn't ring untrue to him. “I believe you” Blake acknowledged. “And for what it's worth I want you to know that I have loved you too” “Thanks Blake, I needed to hear that” “I know and I'm also glad that you came back to Denver” “You are?” Alexis asked astonished. “Even after everything I've put you through? I mean Krystle lost her child because of me. Your child” Alexis spelled it out for him and Blake groaned. “Alexis please let's not get into that...” “No Blake I need to get this off my conscience” Alexis insisted before she went on in a quivering voice “I did fire that gun on purpose” Blake could feel a stab towards his heart, since there it was at last, the naked truth.“I know that it makes me an awful person, but I didn't want anyone else to have your child, I was just so consumed with jealousy that I didn't see the whole picture. I regretted it later of course and maybe that's why I tried so hard to help you when Krystina was ill. Because I somehow wanted to make it up to you...” Alexis' sentence trailed off and Blake was astonished by what she had told him. Of course a part of him had always known that Alexis had caused Krystle's miscarriage on purpose. [I]'But that she actually regrets it?'[/I] Blake reflected since he hadn't seen that one coming. “And I guess you wish I had never come back to Denver now, huh?” Alexis said in a small voice. “Actually no, since you being here have made my life more colorful, not to mention longer. I mean you saved my life once, you were the first to accept Adam, you've helped me reach Steven and you've brought Amanda into my life” Blake smiled. “I think that makes up for the lost child” “You mean that you'll forgive me?” “Yes” Blake nodded. “Even though it's really Krystle's forgiveness you'll need” Blake frowned before he went on. “Alexis I want you to promise me something?” “What?” “Bury the hatches with Krystle. When I'm gone there's no reason for you to argue” “Well maybe you should tell her that. She's the one who starts all of our fights. I mean mud wrestling and taking a swim in the lily pond is not exactly my idea of fun” Alexis said sarcastically and Blake couldn't help but laughing at that. “I know and I have talked to Krystle about it. I think she'll leave you alone if you don't verbally attack her” “I don't...” “Alexis please, we both know that you have an acid tongue. That's one of the things I find so amusing about you” Blake smiled and Alexis smiled back. “Okay, I'll try to be nice to Krystle, how's that?” “Thank you” Blake said gratefully. “Now there's two more things I want you to do for me” “Hey what's with being so demanding?” Alexis said jokingly. “Well if I can't ask for things on my deathbed, when can I ask for them?” Blake replied and Alexis once more started crying as she was reminded of just why she was here.[I] 'Blake's dying. Why does he have to die? Especially now when we've finally sorted things out' [/I]Alexis could feel her heart ache. “Oh Blake I don't want you to die” “I know but I've had a good life. So no more tears for those beautiful eyes, remember?” “I remember” Alexis managed to smile as she pulled herself together. “Now I want you to promise me that you'll be there for our children and our grandchildren” “I promise” “Good since when all is said and done the children is really the most important thing we've accomplished in our lives” “I agree, our children and grandchildren are the most important people in my life” “Mine too, no matter how bad things have been between us they are the one good thing that came out of our marriage and I am so grateful that you had them for me” Blake said in a way that made Alexis smirk. Since it was just so typically Blake to insist she'd had the children for him. [I]'Even on his deathbed he still talks like if the world revolved around him, but then again I guess for so many years my world has revolved around him' [/I]Alexis reflected since she knew that there had been a time when she would have given Blake anything he'd asked for. Even if it meant suffering through 20 hours of labor to produce an heir to his empire. “I'm glad we had the children too” Alexis said softly. “Yes they've all enriched my life so much” Blake said emotionally. “Adam's finally come into his own. He is the son I always hoped to have. The one who will follow in my footsteps. I think he knows that he's finally proven himself to me. Steven, he's the sensitive one, who's found his own path in life. I never thought I'd have a son like him and yet I am glad I did as he's made me a better person. Amanda, she's the sweet one, who reminds me of my mother. She's the one who needs us the most. Since we both failed her as a child she is always looking for reassurance” “I know” Alexis nodded. “And Fallon?” “Fallon will always be my little girl” Blake smiled fondly. “She's the sharpest one of them. A tomboy who grew up to be an intelligent woman with a nose for business. She's so strong, beautiful, colorful and full of life. For so many years she was like a wild horse that couldn't be tamed. She wanted to run free. She's settled down now and I am so proud of her. Out of all of our children she was always my favorite” “I know” Alexis nodded. “But you don't know why, do you?” “No” “Because she's a carbon copy of her mother” Blake's words surprised her. Of course Alexis had always known that Fallon was just like her. Still she hadn't thought that Blake had noticed. “I know, but I wasn't sure you were aware of it” “Oh I was aware of it alright. That's why I spoiled her rotten after you left. Everything I couldn't give you I gave Fallon. Jewelry, ponies, expensive trips and designer clothes” “All the best things that money could buy” Alexis said sadly. “Yes I was forever compensating for having deprived her of a mother's love. Yet the only thing I never did seem to give her enough of was my time. Just like I never gave you enough time. If I had maybe things would have turned out differently for us” “I know but hey let's not cry over the past. It can't be changed anyway. So what was the last thing you wanted from me?” “A goodbye kiss” Blake said softly and his words threw Alexis as it was the last thing she had expected. “What? You can't be serious...” “I'm definitely serious Alexis. After everything we've been to each other I need it” “No wonder you sent Krystle out of the room” “Is that a yes?” “You know I've never been able to deny you anything”Alexis said softly. “Good since I think it's about time we kiss and make up, don't you?” Blake said teasingly and despite his illness she could see something of that old twinkle in his brown eyes. “Yes” Alexis smiled, as she gently leaned down and pressed her lips to Blake's in a tender kiss. It was a bittersweet moment since they both knew that it would be the last time they'd kiss. When their lips parted Alexis looked deep into Blake's brown eyes. He looked at her so tenderly and it seemed like he had something on the tip of his tongue. [I]'Can it be that he still loves me too?' [/I]Alexis wondered, as for a moment it felt like that's what he was trying to communicate with his eyes. But before he had a chance to actually tell her anything the door opened and in came Krystle and Fallon. “Blake are you done with Alexis yet?” Krystle interrupted and the mood was forever lost. “I'm sorry mummy and daddy, I tried to stop her but Krystle promptly wanted to see so you two weren't at each others throats” Fallon said apologetic. “It's alright Fallon, your mother and I were about done here anyway” Blake said to Alexis' disappointment. Still knowing when she was not welcomed Alexis quickly tried to wipe the tears off her face as she said: “Yes we've said just about everything but goodbye so I guess we should do that so I can be on my way...” “Thank you Alexis, I think it's very sensible of you to leave Blake alone with his immediate family. He is tired so he doesn't need too many people around” Krystle said. The comment hurt but rather than letting her rival see what effect her words had on her Alexis turned to Blake and said: “Blake, I'm gonna go now, but I am so glad that we got this chance to talk. I would have hated for you to go without us having a chance to clean the air” “I'm glad too...” Blake smiled. “So I guess all that remains now is to say goodbye” Alexis said with a trembling voice as she tried to stand up. Only finding that she couldn't as Blake wouldn't let go of her hand. “No Alexis, stay” Blake objected. “What did you say?” Alexis wasn't sure she had heard him right. “I said don't you dare going anywhere, I want you to stay” “Thanks Blake that's very sweet of you but I don't think that will go down well with Krystle...” “Krystle's not dying. I am and I want you here, after all your whole family is here so this is where you belong” Blake said matter of factly. “But Blake” Krystle tried to object. “No Krystle, Alexis is after all the mother of four of my children and they'll need her here. So it's okay if she'll stay on for their sake, isn't it Krystle?” “If that's what you want” Krystle replied, as she tried to swallow down her disappointment. She had hoped to get another moment alone with Blake but now with Alexis staying on in the room that seemed impossible. “Good, now come over here Krystle” Blake said and pattered for Krystle to sit down on his other side. Krystle took his other hand and said. “Yes Blake?” “Now I want you to do something for me” “Anything Blake” “Good I want you to make peace with Alexis” “But Blake...” “No buts, if you ladies love me as much as you say you do surely you can bury the hatches for my sake. Or is that too difficult for you?” “No Blake” Alexis promised and not wanting to seem like the bad one Krystle had no choice but reluctantly agree. “Okay Blake” “That's better, now shake hands on it” Alexis and Krystle looked annoyed at each other for a moment before Alexis was the first to offer her hand. “Truce Krystle?” she asked. “Truce Alexis” Krystle replied before she shook it. “Good, now Fallon tell the others to get in here. I want my whole family to be here when I close my eyes” Blake insisted. “Sure daddy” Fallon agreed and then went to fetch her siblings, in laws, children and nieces and nephews. Blake could feel a surge or pride inside of him when he saw his family surround his bed. He made sure to address them one on one as he said his goodbyes and then almost 48 hours later when he finally left this life behind he did so with a smile on his lips. Since he knew that he'd made his life count and left a legacy to his children and grandchildren that he could be proud over... To Be Continued... [/QUOTE]
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