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<blockquote data-quote="Karin Schill" data-source="post: 69135"><p>Thank you Jessie. I am glad that you think I write Alexis perfect. She's my favorite character on Dynasty. <img src="data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7" class="smilie smilie--sprite smilie--sprite1" alt=":)" title="Smile :)" loading="lazy" data-shortname=":)" /></p><p></p><p>Okay so here's the last chapter of this short story: </p><p></p><p></p><p><strong>Chapter 7</strong></p><p></p><p>Alexis was restless. It was past midnight but she couldn't sleep. She'd tried to read a bit but the story was too thin. Her mind kept wandering off to Blake. In fact all she could think about was Blake and that stupid letter that he'd left her. Four days had passed by since the reading of his will and Alexis hadn't read it yet. It was almost like if she'd put it off on purpose since she knew that the letter was the last thing she'd ever hear from Blake. <em>'Maybe I'm just not ready to say goodbye yet?'</em> Alexis pondered, as she put the book down.<em> 'But I should be. I mean Blake is gone and he hasn't been mine for years. So what am I afraid of?' </em>Alexis pondered. Yet in her heart Alexis knew what her problem was. Since so many issues from her marriage with Blake had been left unresolved until the night before he died, she was afraid that the letter would cut open the wounds again and leave her with some awful truth that she didn't want to know. <em>'Yet I really should read it</em>' Alexis pondered, as she opened the drawer on her nightstand. <em>'Maybe if I'll do I can finally get some sleep'.</em> Alexis reflected as she took out the letter.</p><p></p><p></p><p>She had been sleeping badly ever since Blake had died. Every night he came back to her in her dreams as she dreamed about their past. She remembered everything about him and their life together. In her dreams she even relived moments that she thought was long forgotten. Somehow it all came back to her and for a moment the world was alright again. Then she woke up with his names on her lips, looking out into the darkness. The tears rolled down her cheeks as she realized that she'd never get to touch him, kiss him, hold him or see him ever again. It was sweet torture and living in their house didn't exactly help as it was almost like she could feel his presence in the room. Yet Alexis didn't really want to leave. Since the mansion was where her family was and it was the only place in the world that felt like home to her. Fallon had asked her the other day if she'd liked to move in with them and Alexis had a feeling that she would take her up on that offer. Since even if the house was full of memories of her and Blake, living there still beat living alone in yet another hotel or rented pent house. Besides with Blake gone she was now head of the family and she sort of liked it. Not that Blake was ever far from her mind. During the days she remembered the times she'd spent with Blake in the rooms she now inhabited. Yet the days was nowhere near as painful as the nights, as all she had to do was close her eyes and there he was. His face was haunting her and she knew that the only way to get it to stop was by reading his letter and get it over with.</p><p></p><p></p><p>Alexis hands were shaking when she finally broke the seal of the letter. She hesitated for a moment before she pulled out the piece of paper with Blake's emblem on it. Then she started reading it. It wasn't a long letter. But still it meant everything to Alexis as she read it. After finishing the letter Alexis read it all over again, as if she just couldn't believe what she'd just read. <em>'Surely I must have misinterpreted it' </em>Alexis pondered since it seemed a little too good to be true. '<em>Could it be that someone else wrote the letter and is trying to trick me into believing it's a goodbye note from Blake?' </em>Alexis reflected. Then she brushed the idea off. Because there was no mistake since the letter was clearly written in Blake's handwriting. Reading it for a third time Alexis felt like she could almost hear Blake's voice talking to her as she read his final words to her:</p><p></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>Denver, the 31st of March, 2010</em></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>My Darling Alexis, </em></p><p></p><p><em>By the time you're reading this I'll be gone. My death may come as a shock to you as I've kept my illness a well guarded secret from you. But as you probably know by now, I've got cancer and it's slowly killing me from the inside. I've known for four months now. I'm sure if you knew how sick I am you'd be here in a heartbeat as you've always been right here by my side in times of crises. But I made the children promise me not to tell you. Don't be cross with them for it. They only did what I asked them to do. It's for your own good. I thought it would be easier for you to remember me as I was than to see me like this. Now I'm not so sure anymore as I can't get you off my mind. Maybe it's because I'm sick and they are giving me morphine for the pain that I am letting my guard down. All I know is that I need to see you again. I need to set the record straight between us before I'll die. I've asked Fallon to break the news to you. But just in case it's too late and I'll never see you again or I won't be able to tell you everything that's on my mind, I thought I'd write it all down. You may find it hard to believe that I'm writing you this letter as so much time has passed since we were close. But since I don't know how much time I have left or if I'll ever see you again I must write you. Since it is my last chance to tell you everything that's in my heart. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>Alexis I love you. No it's not a joke. I really mean it. I know it's sudden and not what you expect to hear. But it's the truth. After I kicked you out of our house all those years ago I locked my feelings for you up inside my heart. Then I threw away the key. I wanted to forget you. To ban you from my life. So I pushed you out of my life and I did us both wrong. I know now that you can push something down into your subconscious mind and hope to forget it. But If you don't resolve the issue it will keep coming back up to the surface. It will keep haunting you until the end of time. The unresolved issue between us is our divorce. I knew that I had made a mistake when I threw you out the moment Steven asked me why his mummy couldn't be with him for his seventh birthday. I'll never forget the look on his face. I knew then that I never should have forbidden you to see your children. But I was too hurt to tell you so. I could have changed our divorce settlement and allowed you shared custody but I didn't. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>I was selfish and wanted the children all to myself. My excuse was that you were an unfit mother since you were sleeping around. Yet I was a hypocrite. I remember you asked me once if I had remained faithful to you during our marriage and I just smiled. The truth is I wasn't. There were other women on the business trips. They didn't mean anything to me just like I'm sure that the men you slept with didn't mean anything to you. Still to expect you to be faithful when I was just as unfaithful as you were, I was being unfair to you. But I was so jealous and hurt when I found you with Roger. I felt like I owned you. You were mine. I now know that my way of reasoning was chauvinistic, maybe if we'd been more open about our problems and seen a marriage counselor we could have worked things out. But rather than facing our problems I took the easy way out and ran away from them. Maybe deep down I felt like I didn't deserve to be your husband as I could never make you happy. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>I missed you like crazy the first years after our divorce. I should have sought you out and told you the truth. That it was all a big mistake and that I wanted you back. But I didn't. Instead I kept pushing my feelings for you out of mind. It was the only way I could move on and I needed a woman in my life. So I erased you from my life and moved on. It took me a long time to move on but eventually I found love again with Krystle. It was not what you and I had. But it was safe and comforting and just what I thought I needed. I thought that I was over you. But I was wrong. I knew it the moment you stepped inside of that courtroom. All it took was one look at you and all those feelings that I had locked away started to break free. When we were in Rome I wanted you so badly. I wanted to start over again. I loved you then just as much as I ever had. But I also knew that I couldn't live with you. We are both too alike you see and unfortunately we bring out the worst in each other. So I was afraid to take the chance and get my heart broken all over again. So I resisted you and remained true to Krystle. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>Unfortunately my rejection of you brought out the very worst in you. When I found out that Fallon could be Cecil's daughter and that you'd killed Krystle's and my unborn child I had a reason to hate you. It worked really well until every time you did something so selfless for me or one of our children that it made me fall back in love with you again. You once told me that there was a passion between us and that the line between love and hate was thin. You were right that night. But I denied my feelings for you. I kept denying how I felt. Until I lost my memory in Singapore. Those days we spent together as husband and wife just as if you'd never left meant the world to me. It made me realize that I was wrong. We could work together again. In fact being with you made us both a world of good. You stopped searching for revenge and were so supportive of me. I knew then that I also could bring out the very best in you. I could make you happy. The last night we spent together meant so much to me. I know Krystle thinks nothing happened between us and I am so grateful to you for never telling her about that night. For letting it be our secret. Being with you was amazing. I loved you then just as much as I ever had. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>The next night when you told me the truth how you had all engaged in a charade to win an oil deal I died inside. I knew then that as much as I loved you I could never trust you. I also knew that we could never be together again. So I told you that I wanted us to be just friends and selflessly you agreed. I knew it was for the best, since I did have a small child to consider. I didn't want to make the same mistakes with Krystina as I had done with Fallon and Steven. Krystina deserved to have a loving home with a mother and a father. So for her sake I denied my feelings for you and kept living a lie. I know it wasn't right to make that choice for you. But I felt like I was doing us both a favor, as I knew you had Dex Dexter to love you. Dex was a good man and he loved you like you deserved to be loved, with total devotion. He was good for you just as Krystle was for me. Don't get me wrong I did love Krystle. I know you don't want to hear it. But she is a gentle, loving woman who has loved me selflessly. My marriage with her is not what ours was. It doesn't have the same intensity or passion. But I am an old man now and could never keep up with you. So I thought Krystle was just what I needed. Yet now some thirty years later I wonder if I made the right choice. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>All these years I've denied my feelings for you. I thought if I pushed them down enough they wouldn't be there. But I was wrong. I know now that I still love you. I never stopped loving you and if I could live my life all over again I'd never throw you out. Our divorce was the biggest mistake of my life and if I'd known then what I know now I'm sure it would never have happened. But you can't change the past. All I can do now is to ask you for your forgiveness. I really am sorry for giving up on us. It pains me to know that we wasted so much time that we could have been happily married. I know that you still love me and yet I denied us the one thing we both wanted the most. To live together as a family. To watch our children grow up. To grow old together. I know this letter won't right any of the wrongs I've made you. But maybe it can ease some of your pain to know that what we had wasn't just as one sided as I'd lead you on to believe. That you and not Krystle, was in fact the love of my life. Speaking of Krystle, I beg you to never show her this letter. I don't want to hurt her so my feelings for you have to remain our secret. Please Alexis respect my last wishes and take good care of our children for me. To choose you to be their mother was the best thing I ever did in my life and I am so grateful to you for having them. So now you know the truth. I hope it brings you some peace of mind to know that what we had run as deep in me as in you. So now goodbye my love. Take care of yourself and whenever life gets tough just remember that I love you. </em></p><p></p><p></p><p><em>Yours sincerely, </em></p><p></p><p><em>Blake.</em></p><p></p><p></p><p>Alexis could barely make out the words on the paper as silent tears run down her cheeks. It pained her to know that Blake had denied them a lifetime of happiness and love. All because of his stupid morals. It angered her that he had made that choice for her. Yet at the same time, as the meaning of his letter started to become clear to her Alexis could feel her pain ease a little as her broken heart slowly started to mend and the scars in her soul started to heal. Alexis bent over and put the letter back in the drawer as she took out a picture of Blake and herself instead.</p><p></p><p></p><p>“Oh Blake, I love you too” Alexis whispered softly, as she gently stroke the lines of his face. She then put the picture on top of the chest of her drawer where it belonged. For so many years she'd kept her love for Blake hidden inside of her heart. She'd thought that it was one sided and that he'd stopped loving her years ago. Yet now thanks to his goodbye letter she knew that he had loved her just as much as she loved him and in an odd sense that gave her a sense of peace. Since she now knew that she had the one thing that she'd wanted most in her life. The thing that she'd thought been lost to her years ago. She had Blake's love and that was enough to make her smile through her tears. Since she now knew that even though he was gone their life together had meant something to him too. In the decade they spent as husband and wife they had loved each other passionately. They had laughed and cried together and Alexis knew that she would treasure those memories for the rest of her life. She would also treasure the people who were alive because of that love. Since she knew that in their children and grandchildren Blake and she would live on. In fact having the children was the most important thing they had done, as together they had laid the grounds for a Dynasty that would last for several generations to come...</p><p></p><p></p><p>The End.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Karin Schill, post: 69135"] Thank you Jessie. I am glad that you think I write Alexis perfect. She's my favorite character on Dynasty. :) Okay so here's the last chapter of this short story: [B]Chapter 7[/B] Alexis was restless. It was past midnight but she couldn't sleep. She'd tried to read a bit but the story was too thin. Her mind kept wandering off to Blake. In fact all she could think about was Blake and that stupid letter that he'd left her. Four days had passed by since the reading of his will and Alexis hadn't read it yet. It was almost like if she'd put it off on purpose since she knew that the letter was the last thing she'd ever hear from Blake. [I]'Maybe I'm just not ready to say goodbye yet?'[/I] Alexis pondered, as she put the book down.[I] 'But I should be. I mean Blake is gone and he hasn't been mine for years. So what am I afraid of?' [/I]Alexis pondered. Yet in her heart Alexis knew what her problem was. Since so many issues from her marriage with Blake had been left unresolved until the night before he died, she was afraid that the letter would cut open the wounds again and leave her with some awful truth that she didn't want to know. [I]'Yet I really should read it[/I]' Alexis pondered, as she opened the drawer on her nightstand. [I]'Maybe if I'll do I can finally get some sleep'.[/I] Alexis reflected as she took out the letter. She had been sleeping badly ever since Blake had died. Every night he came back to her in her dreams as she dreamed about their past. She remembered everything about him and their life together. In her dreams she even relived moments that she thought was long forgotten. Somehow it all came back to her and for a moment the world was alright again. Then she woke up with his names on her lips, looking out into the darkness. The tears rolled down her cheeks as she realized that she'd never get to touch him, kiss him, hold him or see him ever again. It was sweet torture and living in their house didn't exactly help as it was almost like she could feel his presence in the room. Yet Alexis didn't really want to leave. Since the mansion was where her family was and it was the only place in the world that felt like home to her. Fallon had asked her the other day if she'd liked to move in with them and Alexis had a feeling that she would take her up on that offer. Since even if the house was full of memories of her and Blake, living there still beat living alone in yet another hotel or rented pent house. Besides with Blake gone she was now head of the family and she sort of liked it. Not that Blake was ever far from her mind. During the days she remembered the times she'd spent with Blake in the rooms she now inhabited. Yet the days was nowhere near as painful as the nights, as all she had to do was close her eyes and there he was. His face was haunting her and she knew that the only way to get it to stop was by reading his letter and get it over with. Alexis hands were shaking when she finally broke the seal of the letter. She hesitated for a moment before she pulled out the piece of paper with Blake's emblem on it. Then she started reading it. It wasn't a long letter. But still it meant everything to Alexis as she read it. After finishing the letter Alexis read it all over again, as if she just couldn't believe what she'd just read. [I]'Surely I must have misinterpreted it' [/I]Alexis pondered since it seemed a little too good to be true. '[I]Could it be that someone else wrote the letter and is trying to trick me into believing it's a goodbye note from Blake?' [/I]Alexis reflected. Then she brushed the idea off. Because there was no mistake since the letter was clearly written in Blake's handwriting. Reading it for a third time Alexis felt like she could almost hear Blake's voice talking to her as she read his final words to her: [I]Denver, the 31st of March, 2010[/I] [I]My Darling Alexis, [/I] [I]By the time you're reading this I'll be gone. My death may come as a shock to you as I've kept my illness a well guarded secret from you. But as you probably know by now, I've got cancer and it's slowly killing me from the inside. I've known for four months now. I'm sure if you knew how sick I am you'd be here in a heartbeat as you've always been right here by my side in times of crises. But I made the children promise me not to tell you. Don't be cross with them for it. They only did what I asked them to do. It's for your own good. I thought it would be easier for you to remember me as I was than to see me like this. Now I'm not so sure anymore as I can't get you off my mind. Maybe it's because I'm sick and they are giving me morphine for the pain that I am letting my guard down. All I know is that I need to see you again. I need to set the record straight between us before I'll die. I've asked Fallon to break the news to you. But just in case it's too late and I'll never see you again or I won't be able to tell you everything that's on my mind, I thought I'd write it all down. You may find it hard to believe that I'm writing you this letter as so much time has passed since we were close. But since I don't know how much time I have left or if I'll ever see you again I must write you. Since it is my last chance to tell you everything that's in my heart. [/I] [I]Alexis I love you. No it's not a joke. I really mean it. I know it's sudden and not what you expect to hear. But it's the truth. After I kicked you out of our house all those years ago I locked my feelings for you up inside my heart. Then I threw away the key. I wanted to forget you. To ban you from my life. So I pushed you out of my life and I did us both wrong. I know now that you can push something down into your subconscious mind and hope to forget it. But If you don't resolve the issue it will keep coming back up to the surface. It will keep haunting you until the end of time. The unresolved issue between us is our divorce. I knew that I had made a mistake when I threw you out the moment Steven asked me why his mummy couldn't be with him for his seventh birthday. I'll never forget the look on his face. I knew then that I never should have forbidden you to see your children. But I was too hurt to tell you so. I could have changed our divorce settlement and allowed you shared custody but I didn't. [/I] [I]I was selfish and wanted the children all to myself. My excuse was that you were an unfit mother since you were sleeping around. Yet I was a hypocrite. I remember you asked me once if I had remained faithful to you during our marriage and I just smiled. The truth is I wasn't. There were other women on the business trips. They didn't mean anything to me just like I'm sure that the men you slept with didn't mean anything to you. Still to expect you to be faithful when I was just as unfaithful as you were, I was being unfair to you. But I was so jealous and hurt when I found you with Roger. I felt like I owned you. You were mine. I now know that my way of reasoning was chauvinistic, maybe if we'd been more open about our problems and seen a marriage counselor we could have worked things out. But rather than facing our problems I took the easy way out and ran away from them. Maybe deep down I felt like I didn't deserve to be your husband as I could never make you happy. [/I] [I]I missed you like crazy the first years after our divorce. I should have sought you out and told you the truth. That it was all a big mistake and that I wanted you back. But I didn't. Instead I kept pushing my feelings for you out of mind. It was the only way I could move on and I needed a woman in my life. So I erased you from my life and moved on. It took me a long time to move on but eventually I found love again with Krystle. It was not what you and I had. But it was safe and comforting and just what I thought I needed. I thought that I was over you. But I was wrong. I knew it the moment you stepped inside of that courtroom. All it took was one look at you and all those feelings that I had locked away started to break free. When we were in Rome I wanted you so badly. I wanted to start over again. I loved you then just as much as I ever had. But I also knew that I couldn't live with you. We are both too alike you see and unfortunately we bring out the worst in each other. So I was afraid to take the chance and get my heart broken all over again. So I resisted you and remained true to Krystle. [/I] [I]Unfortunately my rejection of you brought out the very worst in you. When I found out that Fallon could be Cecil's daughter and that you'd killed Krystle's and my unborn child I had a reason to hate you. It worked really well until every time you did something so selfless for me or one of our children that it made me fall back in love with you again. You once told me that there was a passion between us and that the line between love and hate was thin. You were right that night. But I denied my feelings for you. I kept denying how I felt. Until I lost my memory in Singapore. Those days we spent together as husband and wife just as if you'd never left meant the world to me. It made me realize that I was wrong. We could work together again. In fact being with you made us both a world of good. You stopped searching for revenge and were so supportive of me. I knew then that I also could bring out the very best in you. I could make you happy. The last night we spent together meant so much to me. I know Krystle thinks nothing happened between us and I am so grateful to you for never telling her about that night. For letting it be our secret. Being with you was amazing. I loved you then just as much as I ever had. [/I] [I]The next night when you told me the truth how you had all engaged in a charade to win an oil deal I died inside. I knew then that as much as I loved you I could never trust you. I also knew that we could never be together again. So I told you that I wanted us to be just friends and selflessly you agreed. I knew it was for the best, since I did have a small child to consider. I didn't want to make the same mistakes with Krystina as I had done with Fallon and Steven. Krystina deserved to have a loving home with a mother and a father. So for her sake I denied my feelings for you and kept living a lie. I know it wasn't right to make that choice for you. But I felt like I was doing us both a favor, as I knew you had Dex Dexter to love you. Dex was a good man and he loved you like you deserved to be loved, with total devotion. He was good for you just as Krystle was for me. Don't get me wrong I did love Krystle. I know you don't want to hear it. But she is a gentle, loving woman who has loved me selflessly. My marriage with her is not what ours was. It doesn't have the same intensity or passion. But I am an old man now and could never keep up with you. So I thought Krystle was just what I needed. Yet now some thirty years later I wonder if I made the right choice. [/I] [I]All these years I've denied my feelings for you. I thought if I pushed them down enough they wouldn't be there. But I was wrong. I know now that I still love you. I never stopped loving you and if I could live my life all over again I'd never throw you out. Our divorce was the biggest mistake of my life and if I'd known then what I know now I'm sure it would never have happened. But you can't change the past. All I can do now is to ask you for your forgiveness. I really am sorry for giving up on us. It pains me to know that we wasted so much time that we could have been happily married. I know that you still love me and yet I denied us the one thing we both wanted the most. To live together as a family. To watch our children grow up. To grow old together. I know this letter won't right any of the wrongs I've made you. But maybe it can ease some of your pain to know that what we had wasn't just as one sided as I'd lead you on to believe. That you and not Krystle, was in fact the love of my life. Speaking of Krystle, I beg you to never show her this letter. I don't want to hurt her so my feelings for you have to remain our secret. Please Alexis respect my last wishes and take good care of our children for me. To choose you to be their mother was the best thing I ever did in my life and I am so grateful to you for having them. So now you know the truth. I hope it brings you some peace of mind to know that what we had run as deep in me as in you. So now goodbye my love. Take care of yourself and whenever life gets tough just remember that I love you. [/I] [I]Yours sincerely, [/I] [I]Blake.[/I] Alexis could barely make out the words on the paper as silent tears run down her cheeks. It pained her to know that Blake had denied them a lifetime of happiness and love. All because of his stupid morals. It angered her that he had made that choice for her. Yet at the same time, as the meaning of his letter started to become clear to her Alexis could feel her pain ease a little as her broken heart slowly started to mend and the scars in her soul started to heal. Alexis bent over and put the letter back in the drawer as she took out a picture of Blake and herself instead. “Oh Blake, I love you too” Alexis whispered softly, as she gently stroke the lines of his face. She then put the picture on top of the chest of her drawer where it belonged. For so many years she'd kept her love for Blake hidden inside of her heart. She'd thought that it was one sided and that he'd stopped loving her years ago. Yet now thanks to his goodbye letter she knew that he had loved her just as much as she loved him and in an odd sense that gave her a sense of peace. Since she now knew that she had the one thing that she'd wanted most in her life. The thing that she'd thought been lost to her years ago. She had Blake's love and that was enough to make her smile through her tears. Since she now knew that even though he was gone their life together had meant something to him too. In the decade they spent as husband and wife they had loved each other passionately. They had laughed and cried together and Alexis knew that she would treasure those memories for the rest of her life. She would also treasure the people who were alive because of that love. Since she knew that in their children and grandchildren Blake and she would live on. In fact having the children was the most important thing they had done, as together they had laid the grounds for a Dynasty that would last for several generations to come... The End. [/QUOTE]
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